Wednesday, June 27, 2007

17, finally.....

-Having your appetites indulging for one?-

Celebrated my 17th birthday with my family and good friends with great fellowship filled with laughter and joy and having good times which I'll never forget. 4 guys(?) yeah, no chicks..guess they were busy, and this was the 2nd time! Haahahahaha!!! Well, for my birthday this year, we had a BBQ gathering which was really fun and enjoying.

-Everybody! Dig in! *Munch-munch-much* *Burp~!* Woops! Excuse us.-

-Tim and Tristan (Warcraft 3 players from team EX-7)-

- I'm relieved. That was good beef-

Monday, June 25, 2007




When the sun comes down
When the rain wash away
All the hopes I can bring
To another day
Another day

When your trees start to sway
And the wind makes them move

I can tell that
You don't know

To all the fights I've conquered and beyond
The times have changed and I will now move over slowly...
But through it all I still feel lost without you
Hard to find a new soul
The silence takes its toll

Just sway
You don't know...
Just sway
You don't know...
Just sway
When all you want is to find home...

Theres a light pausing
Feel the volume of the sky
Mark your place in time with another question why...

Tiny flickers in the night
Always looking to be right


You don't know
Just sway
You don't know
Just sway
When all you want is to find home...
Just sway
And you don't love
Just sway
And you don't know
Just sway
When all you want is to find home...

Ooooh ooooh ooooh ooooh
Just sway
Just sway

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Reconcile moment for the mind....

I feel serenity, I embrace distorted peace just to get away from the craziness of this world and the phases gotten through which had an immediate effect of hardship and relief.
I'm like an open book with insomnia in the nocturnal night which lets me lease like crossing the twilight zone of life, just like moving in parallel angles with the uses of my mind and not my physical sudden movements. The gravity pull during the turn of a 180 Degrees of Earth appointing the exact location I am now has made my mind lost in oblivion with memories being remembered vividly as it goes for my heart which helps me open up my senses with feelings of regrets, joy, anger that is being narrated by own mind of reminiscence upon several events taken place from the past and thats when the negative vibe into my own cerebrum projects out nightmares which I never wanted (So much for photographic memory), can cause to make me feel the 'real thing' and bring sweat in my inner towards my fears.

I try to endure the painful imaginative suffering which has been brought by itself from certain events taken place. The manifestation of the oppressive space around me had made me become like a mindless puppet without pondering my surroundings as it gets too crowded sometimes. The deep depths of the exotic thinking I've ever gotten since I was a kid had made a song out of it even as a track for my very first EP single for The Melt Method, 'Once Upon A full Moon'.

-A walk into the woods-

The song which most people thought was about the loiters of a person's feelings, but it means more towards the mind which twitches repetitively and explores the deep depths of unknown feelings which can be a scary and yet a big wonder of discovery in a lead to the truth we've been looking for ourselves for so long. The truth does not have the same concept (or even perception for that matter) like everybody else in the world, but the truth is within ourselves and we gotta search for it without the wits but with the feelings to embrace it. Upon the discovery steps into our lives more than just walking in our own shadow. We will have the vibe of renewal and self-loyalty than just the hormone changes of our own physical being of the life cycle in order to living a mutual direction being shined to guide us.

It is our feelings and thoughts depending on the courses we've been through and while that happens, we feel reborn. I'm not trying to create a cult or even form an independent religion from what I've written in this very deemed post. Our mind feels like being sucked into a black hole, which recreates a whole new reality of awareness with a success of ones popped up opinion.

Some of us or even maybe you can see justification ain't always the solution as it has its own boundaries towards what we do within our current limits as we move on. Negative justification satisfies its blind criticism without looking in more details of an individual. Sometimes, things aren't always the way you want it to be. We try and we become humble. Nevertheless, our conscience tells us two sides of the story. Don't hesitate to begin with, CHOOSE!
One vibe given by the oppressor to the misunderstood soul may cause him to break down in tears and pierce the heart bleeding with discouragement and resentment.
Thats why these situations are subjected to be really subliminal as it is.

Therefore, thats what makes the whole being of a human unique. And may my mind reconcile to stimulate my feelings as it is...

Friday, June 22, 2007

The beginning has just begun..

Well...I'm turning 17 in just 2 hours time and still counting till my reach to another teenage year. And somehow I know for certain that I've grown a lot in the past and to think that I've learned so little things in so little time. But then again, I've applied a lot and I don't notice it somehow. The paradox of time would always be a wonder in your very own mind though. It feels like it was just yesterday I just learned how to walk and talk and now I've accomplished my little goals like performing on stage, composing my own music, a try-hard student, coming up with my own philosophies, living up life wisely as I can, and a lot more as follows. Way back in the past, I used to be really uncertain about a lot of things about life and not likely aware of what is around my environment. And as time passes me by, I wouldn't realize how my own mind, body and soul would mature so fast and its just scary once you know how much I've grown. A few days back, I decided to flip a few pages of my photo album. And it seems as though I look way younger back then. The realization only triggers if you leave your photo album to collect dust for 4 years and then re-open it and you'll be surprised how young you were and how kiddish you were in the past and you would become sceptic about it of how immature you were and how your voice first sounded before it broke. Those were good memories worth cherished. And it comes to a point when I sometimes think I should have accomplished this and that a long time ago or how much I wanted to do something in the past to really give the best to make my immediate family to be proud of who I am..well, we may not accomplish those thing as a first attempt, but I realized its the attempt itself that makes them happy. We learned from mistakes and we grow and doubts about being naive. Thats how it goes. These moments make me weep inside but its a really good feeling.

Lets go back in time as to how my life began to unfold and continues to pursue itself.

I was born to rock this world!

When I was first in my mother's arms...

Another number (My sister) who thought I was a girl when the doctor lied to her that she gotten a sister. HAHAHA! Too bad, she got a brother instead to settle and makes my milk...hahahah...

In the making of being a musician and known as a comical performer back then when I didn't know how to form a 'C' chord.

A fantasy worth a reality. My first gig with my trusty 'girlfriend' in my hands..

Is this a sign of my first horny expression? Nah, can't be.

Like father, like son...(I hope I don't follow his physical trait like losing a patch
of hair or more)



Another member of the family. Prince Cheah...

Well, these are my life and times growing up. And I'll be taking steps towards my dreams as a growing boy to a matured man...

Thursday, June 21, 2007

May my soul lay to rest as it is too much to take

Most of all, I'm well aware of my vary of cautious writing in my blog or so to speak. But somehow I think its not necessary for every post to be a joyful and a happy one. Somehow, I rarely write about my personal stuff that I keep and hide from my fellow readers, but I think its best to let it out than to hide behind the lies or the secrets I've been holding on to my feelings and intentions for too long.

To start it off, I want you guys to know that things I hoped for to live on for the greater good doesn't always come by. I'm sure you (readers) would feel the same way.
The sun ain't always shining, what we've done (good or bad) is what lies in the past and they may haunt you sometimes. Not everything about me is good as what you've read about me all along. They are true in a way, but behind the mind of a blogger like me, there's more than meets the posts..

Now I'm willing to share with you, one of my darker depths in life you may have seen.

Darkness may reign over me and may embrace the world in gray as the same. I tried my best, I feel satisfied and I'm proud of the accomplishment, but I feel as though it just ain't enough and its yet to be blamed by my own cause.

Not forgiving yourself is well worth of betraying yourself. Which in my opinion, its not that simple. Because forgiving for what you've done, there's gotta be a reason for everything from the past. There's more than enough wisdom in myself and even yours to know why the action was even taken in the first place from the past.
Its in your blood, your intentions, your will.

We may have one or several number of alter egos we play roles in our daily lives. When its up to the point when the act of an individual gets gets mutual and controversial. Your mind is like being clawed by an unknown monster and eats your good thoughts passively. And you yourself may become the 'monster'

Tell me, could it be that he who desires something gets 'seduced' by the demon or is it a passion which becomes an obsession that begins to go on and carries with him in his life cycle?
Is it because, what he has created begins to regret where he started or is it the fact that what he has never intentionally put himself in that position begins to unwind the tragic story?

As far as the 'Law Of Attraction' is concerned; he who thinks about brings about, yes. But what if something were to really attract him to it, were to backfire towards his mindset and things get really messy without any doubtful mindsets in his head? Thats what I always wonder. Dad, if you're reading this, I would actually wonder why is it that way.

Thats whats been happening to me all this while, the good and the bad..what do you expect? That ain't necessary. No, I'm not sitting here continuously writing till something pops out of my mind and find the reasons as to why I'm being in this state of mind. I'm writing because I wanna express out and know myself a little bit better.

I've had disappointments I kept inside and replace it with good feelings and I know the world in its current matter/state of affairs can be a cold and dark place to live in and yet a warm and bright place to settle and embrace life as it is no matter what.

I don't take these intentionally but to discover why things aren't going so well these days. Miserable all the time? Dunno. Not satisfied? Maybe. Expect more out of life? Absolutely. Feeling discriminated by my failure and feeling prolonged happiness for my success which has an approximately 60:40% and a 40:60% inequivalent balance in my daily life.

I don't think of what people think I am but somehow people know me for who I am. They who say things like,"Yo, Static Spike's the man! You should go for lead guitar and beat the crap asses out of people" or even in terms like,"You will go far in life of what you do. No problem at all"
Somehow, my intentions tell me that I don't buy that kind of crap. I did it because of a reason I've made. And people who assumed me this and that is like things had been taken away from me what I've left away, "When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done. Help me leave behind some..reasons to be missed. And don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest" is what Chester Bennington said in his words of view

The purity of life brings me hope and makes life fun and easier. The impurity of life brings me difficulty that me stronger to resist it and the black hat I've become. Mood swings on my mind. A 'shape-changing' feeling and despair of personality I can't explain and muster.

All in all, this is who I am and I shall not be ashamed or not to even be proud of at the same time. We go through the crash course phases which would lead to (?)

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

The Adler Brothers (Chris Adler and Willy Adler) / Jim Roots & Mick Thomson from Slipknot

Here are a few videos of the Adler brothers from Lamb of god. Its good, its fresh..
They're a good influence in Heavy Metal music with their guitar and drums work.
You can call them a Groove-Metal/American Metal/Hardcore Metal but if you thought they were Black Metal, you were dead wrong...dark and heavy metaphoric vibes don't make Lamb Of God any closer to Black they are..THE ADLER BROTHERS!

Blood Of The Scribe

Now You've got something to die for

On the other hand, we have James Root and Mick Thomson from Slipknot. The both guitarist with crazy riffs and shreds that make you call them 'genius'. With a blend of heavy-down tuned distortion and masterpiece of guitar techniques make these guitarists really genuine to be real technical and practical players.

Mick and James (Slipknot) Harmonic Minor Lick

Mick and James (Slipknot) Chromatic scale warm up

Jim Root's shred tips

Mick Thomson's shred tips

Saturday, June 02, 2007

The Secret

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I'm grateful that my father introduced me to the DVD and my mother with full of love gotten the copy of the book to read with joy :)

So guys, get the copy of the DVD and the book to discover more of 'The Secret'

My Mummy.............

My Mummy

If you are ever lucky enough to know my mother,
You will learn what true inspiration and genuine really is.
You will never pass her by without receiving a hug and a kind word,
Nor will your birthday come and go
without a sweet card and wonderful treat.

If you unfortunately lose a loved one,
my mother will be there to console.
She will pray for you and cry with you.
If you ever see her with people she love and love her.
You will surely see her,
Lovingly teaching, glorifying in songs of Love,
and yes she loves singing.
Some will know her through her healing with love, and will wonder in amazement at the knowledge she possesses and the comfort in her touch.

You will never hear her utter an unkind word,
for cruelty is not in her heart.
You will never hear her speak boastfully
because she is the definition of humble.

She has taught me, inspired me, sacrificed and loved me.
She has been there through everything and will continue always.
She is my Best Friend.
If you ever have the chance to meet my mother even once,
You will know that you have been truly blessed.

***Sometimes I know the words to say, give thanks for all you've done, but then they fly up and away as quickly as they come.

How could I possibly thank you enough, the one the who makes me whole, the one whom I owe my life to the forming of my soul.

The one who tucked me in at night the one who stopped my crying(when I young), the one who was an expert at picking up my lying.

The one who saw me off to school, And spent sad days alone, Yet magically produced a smile as soon as we come home.

The one who makes such sacrifices, to always put me first, who lets me test my broken wings, In spite of how it hurts.

Who paints the world a rainbow, when it’s filled with broken dreams, who explains it all so clearly, when nothings what it seems.

Are there any words for this?
I find this question tough
Anything I want to say
just doesn't seem enough.

What way is there to thank you
For your heart, your sweat, your tears, for ten thousand little things you've done, For oh-so many years.

For changing with me as I changed with me as I changed, Accepting all my flaws,
not loving cause you had to but loving Just Because,

For never giving up on me, When your wits had reached their ends, for always being my best friend.

And so I come to realize, the only way to say, the only way to think you thats enough is clear in just one way.

Look at me before you, see what I've become, Do you see yourself in me?
The job that you have done

All your hopes and all your dreams, the strength that no one sees a transfer over many years, your best was passed to me.

Thank you for the gifts you give, for everything you do, but thanks mommy most of all for making dreams come true.
And that Dream is You.***

Do think positive everyday and all day long to help prolong and gain happiness to create a cheerful and happy environment to give out love and care each day***

Loving you always.