Sunday, June 29, 2008

Booze Symphony Opt. 15 Prodigy

Last night, my sister and I went to KLCC to watch an orchestra playing the scores from the renowned theme 'Sleeping Beauty', composed by the great Tchaikovsky. I'm pretty much into classical music. I'm a fan of composers like Ludvig Van Beethoven, Johann Brahms, Tchaikovsky and John Sebastian Bach (In case you didn't know, classical music was part of the influences of heavy metal). We were at the philharmonic auditorium located in the Petronas Towers. Inside the auditorium had great acoustics surrounding the place. I didn't have any pictures of the performers or the place, because cameras were prohibited from the place. Both of us had enjoyed 90 minutes of full blast music out of Violins, Cellos, Harps, Flutes and etc. My favourite instrument was the Cello because it had such a big sound, you can even play it loud without the use of a 30 watt guitar amplifier. It's that amazing. During the performance, I noticed that every performer had such emotion and feel when applying it to their playing. I guess that's what music is all about.

After the show, my dad picked us up just outside of KLCC and we headed down to some pub in Ampang Point for my first mug of beer. I've been waiting for that moment to come since then and it was 'THE DAY'. In short, we ate dinner and started to order beer. My dad had drank 1 1/2 mugs while I broke the record of 2 1/2. Which was nothing to be proud about, because later on, I started to get 'high' and I was kinda wasted. I threw up once we got home. But it was all fun. The reason for me, throwing up was because I rushed on my drinks. A lesson learned indeed.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Maestro's of the universe

Dream Theater is well known for their great musical mixes of Progressive Metal, Experimental, Classical and etc by very talented members;John Myung (Bassist), John Petrucci (Guitarist) , James LaBrie (Vocalist), Jordan Rudess (Keyboardist) and Mike Portnoy (Drummer). I'm indeed very impressed with the skills (musically) and creativity they have in music. John Petrucci being one of the top shredders in the world, Mike Portnoy as an extreme drum player, Jordan Rudess as the keyboard god, John Myung as the bass wiz, and James LaBrie for being a phenomenal vocalist. They're such an epic, you can't stop them. They are like the band, 'ELO' (Electric Light Orchestra) from the mid-60's, but only with more precision and 'kick'. They deserve to be on MTV as a greater exposure breakthrough. Wouldn't it be great if they had collaborated with an orchestra band like what Metallica did with their 'S&M' concert? Here's a video by Dream Theater. Enjoy. What other band can be more technical based than these genius musicians?

Dream Theater-The Glass Prison

Monday, June 23, 2008

Smells like 18 spirit

Finally, I've turned 18. A very special day for me indeed. This would be the day that I'll be thinking on my own and do things according to my choices at wise. Yeah, 18 is just a number. But it is the time for me to climb every mountain and battle every storm to achieve my goals. I'm not a dreamer, but I guess I'm a dream chaser for working my way on getting what I want without hurting anybody. What can we tell from this? It could be that, I would want to manage my own life. That doesn't mean I don't need guidelines from friends and family along the way. How does it feel being 18? Well, to me it feels like you basically get to grow to an Adult and you know that you've gone one step ahead. And for that, you just want to achieve 'something' (anything) you want ever since you were a kid. What do I want to achieve? Being on stage and do gigs like before, cooking with all my heart's content, and earning more money.

I know, it may seem like I'm acting all grown up about money. But no, it's never wrong to secure concrete on financial savings. It's way better than to wish that money grew from trees. At this age, we may think that we're still young. But no, with a blink of an eye we could turn 21. The wonders of time being able to fly before you even know it. So, what to do? Maximize our moment being who we want to be, before we grow old. Hehehe. Time to grow up and start making wise choices..

Out in the world, most people can't help you but you can only help yourself.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Like a kid in a candy store..

Hmm, 2 more days till I turn 18. Time to grow up now and start looking at bigger things and reach out for the best. But like usual, I would always have a wish list in my head every year whenever my birthday is around the corner..and it's still mandatory that I wish for a new rig to satisfy my needs. Alvin wishes to get a new butt-kicking guitar amp and I would wish for either a Yamaha RGX A-2 or an Ibanez RG321FM :D The only thing that the both of us have in common is...we have GAS! Hehehe. It kinda helps having that syndrome, you would forget about your ex-girlfriends and settle for something that treats you better. Just like how girls would go shopping, on the day that they break up with THEIR boyfriends! See, same difference! Hahahah!

My birthday wish list:

A Takamine acoustic guitar with a preamp system. It's the dream, I just love the tone.

Ibanez RG321FM. Love the neck and pickups (Though it deserves an upgrade)

Hope that my 18th birthday would be the best birthday in my teenage years...

Friday, June 20, 2008

All Hope Is Gone..the rise of Slipknot...

Slipknot-All Hope Is Gone

It's here and it's now. The new single of Slipknot is finally here to rush the blood through your head and makes you wanna say,"Hell YEAH! Let's headbang!". Enjoy fellow "Maggots".

Slipknot world domination starts NOW!

Thursday, June 19, 2008


1 1/2 more hours till the release of Slipknot's new single 'All hope is gone' off their new album which would be expected to release in August this year. After a long hiatus of the band for almost 3 years, the boys are making a big come back into the metal scene and an attempt to 'conquer' the world once again with their hard thumping charisma to bring out the best of Heavy Metal.

During the band's hiatus:

-'#4'James Root (Rhythm guitar) & '#8'Corey Taylor (Vocalist) followed up a comeback with their old band 'Stone Sour'

-'#6' Shawn "Clown" Crahan (Percussionist) formed a side-project band called 'Dirty
Little Rabbits

-'#7' Mick Thomson was on a Guitar Clinic Tour

-'#1'Joey Jordison was a substitute drummer for KORN during their 2007 tour for nearly 5 months, due to David Slivera being under hiatus from the band (KORN). Jordison helped produce Three Inches Of Blood's latest album 'Fire Up The Blades' (2007)

-'#0'Sid filled in his time as a part-time Jungle Musician which made a follow up in Japan

- No news about '#2' Paul Gray, '3' Chris Fehn and '#5' Craig Jones.


Unforgiveable Incident

Few days ago, my computer nearly died on me. There was some sort of boot disk error in the system and I thought that I've lost all of my data with a hard disk failure. It didn't matter if I lost my massive MP3 collection, what mattered the most was that, being afraid of losing the amount of songs I've written and drafted for the past 3 years of lyric composing. My whole family decided to bring it to a computer store for repair, and the IT guy told us that the CPU could boot. Probably the cause of motherboard failure. Don't get me wrong, this motherboard has been with us for almost 7 years or so, and there was no hard disk failure. The next time, I HAVE to save up my lyrics for further inspiration to write more and maybe record some singles next time...

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Come Clarity

A melancholic feeling brought about by in 'The Star' newspaper edition yesterday, about a person being beaten up while seeking for help to save his mother, spurred me to write this blog.

It all started when restaurant worker, Moh Cheng Mau had returned home from work and believed to have witnessed his mother, Foo Yoon Yew fighting for her life during an asthma attack. His pure intentions had led him to seek help by running out 100 metres in a failed attempt to stop a taxi. Instead, he attracted a dark-coloured car with 4 strangers inside. The gang lied to Moh by convincing him to follow the group in search of an ambulance. After being driven 300 meters away, Moh was then robbed and assaulted by the 4 men in a graveyard site. He later regained consciousness and staggered back home. Neighbours called the police and ambulance, Moh and his mother were brought to Sultanah Aminah Hospital for treatment but his mother unfortunately did not make it and Moh was left with 2 broken ribs and a badly swollen face.

Questions I would like to ask ;

- How could anybody be so wicked? This shocks me.

- Where does one find justice? The legal system? What if the perpetrators are never caught; who pays the price? What about divine justice? Is this karma?

Here's a video dedication to the people who are in need. Slipknot's Surfacing..

"The people shouldn't be afraid of their government, the government should be afraid of them", (V for Vendetta)

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Piecing it up together...

Life is awkward, but fun. I would think that problems are meant to be temporary because there would always be new ones in the future. That's what I realized today, nobody can give the greatest damage to me except to myself from within. I think that bringing up closure to whatever situation without even reconciling the differences would somehow bring doom to us. And it'll definitely be useless to carry it on with our daily lives, because the problem will cling on to us. Maybe...just maybe, that we take the problems from the past with the future to lash it out in the present. I feel as though, I've been doing that without even noticing and this a fresh new start for me to get things smoothly again with my life.

Well, as my friend once said in his msn message board, 'You're never wise if you weren't wild and crazy back then'. That explains a lot of the things to whoever thinks (Man, I regret doing this in the past and now I've come this far). Maybe it's because we learn from it and pay heed to those moments. I never believed that doing charity for others would make you a superior being, but because you would do without asking anything in return. And this is what I think, giving once won't make a difference AT ALL! Continually giving is something which you would continue doing something good and make your moments great.

I mean, before you die, would you help an old lady cross the street and give yourself and get yourself killed from an accident to head to heaven straight away? Come on now! HAHAHA! That's just ludicrous. That would mean you're trying to gain a good resume' from the afterlife. Charity begins at home guys. What do I think of luck? It doesn't come to you, it just happens to be an unconscious 'being' which I would call it 'Accident' than a sudden force to be claimed to be gained by chance.

All of this comes to the means that we should learn to be human and be good people (all the time). Well, I would also think that the hard to the hardest pressure would always have
a weak point, which also relates from small to big problems. In my current situation now, it's hard and very scary at the moment, but I guess facing it is what makes a man out of us 'guys'. And later after a few days would be my birthday. Which also found me an answer that the hardest push must be endured to prevent the greatest guilt. Time for all of us to walk on..

Weird...Deja Vu...Psychotic?

Message to something that is bothering me,"Bring it on BITCH!"

Ok, has anybody experienced the feeling of being able to re-experience the same moment or even having this feeling of being watched before? I HAVE! Let's see, bad dreams keep repeating over and over again, some situations start to make me feel that I've been through it before or has that gone over my head? I don't know. You see, dear readers...for the past 1 week, I've been getting dreams about people blaming me for things which I didn't do. The thing is, I don't know what I did, but the theme of the dream was just 'Blaming Somebody'. It's scary, it makes you sweat and chills you right down to the bone and worst of ruins your mood. Am I just being tad paranoid?

How is this affecting my life? I wouldn't let it, but it's been trying. All this while, I've been trying to figure out my thoughts relating to what caused these horrible dreams. Probably pressure on some things that I'm trying to endure? Watching too much thriller movies? Of course we all know that dreams and nightmares aren't real. But how could you explain IF anyone around you started to act all weird and not being their brighter selves? Be it, both reality and fantasy at the same time? And with that, it affects you even more. You try to make things positive but it pushes you to the edge till you kinda break down for a while, till you get back on your feet. Like my sister, after that dream about her scolding me like mad. Yesterday was worse, back in reality..she seemed more violent and tends to scold me worse than before. (Sorry sis, it's the truth and I don't blame you). Maybe they have personal problems as well? I don't think so, because the problems inflict damage on me most of the time. Should I manifest such a massive positive persona to change things around? The pressure is on and I'm NOT afraid to face 'IT'! (Entity). This shows that we are not alone..

Dear readers, I'm not ill. HAHAHA!! It's just that, the 'weird' situation is trying to get inside my mind but I'm fending it off to continue walking with life. I don't know what it is. If you think I'm crazy, you're well welcomed to think of me which ever way you want. But, what I've experienced is towards me admitting of what happened. And "No", I'm not one of those writers who rant out their anger or pain in their post because they're under pressure and decides to apologize and 'cool down' with the writing on their post and talks about something else. Some 'thing' is out there. This may seem like the 'paranoia'. Entity..did that scare you? I'm not sure. But there's something out there.

On the brighter note, it's just part and parcel of what happens around us sometimes. It may sustain for a while, but I guess it'll fade away someday and maybe make a come back. Somehow we have to battle our demons. Did my post send chills down your spine yet? Here's an attitude music video to get your mojo back up again. Let's all be spiritually strong!


"WALK ON HOME BOY!", Philip Hansen

Sunday, June 15, 2008

A not so common survey (Specially for aspiring musicians)

I saw this survey as I was surfing around the net for music related sites and I thought (Hey, what the heck... just answer this survey).

1. Are you in a band?
Yes (Under Hiatus)

2. What instrument(s) do you play?
Guitar (Acoustic and electric. Got fed up with classical guitar)

3. What are your favourite instrument brands/models?
Ibanez RG 321MH (Any good RG with an Original Floyd Rose Tremolo system), Yamaha RGX A-2, American Fender Telecaster, Yamaha F-310

4. Can you read notes?
Nope, chords and tabs only. I'm never a technical player..

5. Who are your supporters?
Family and friends.

6. What/Who are your influences?
Joe Satriani, Yngwie Malmsteen, Slipknot, Nine Inch Nails, Linkin Park and so on..

7. Would you be a frontman or a follower of a band?
Frontman, it's nice being the boss..

8. How do you think live gigs should be like?

Just be well prepared and have loads of fun on stage! :D

9. What is YOUR view towards music?
Music is like food and water, it's the essence of life in your ears and heart. It should be a

10. Did music save your life?
Yes, and so did Family...

11. If you were rich and famous with your band, how do you want things to be after that?
You gotta know where you're well grounded, the best thing is that you get good endorsement
deals. Fame isn't everything and it's quite bad, but getting free stuff is nice..

12. If you were to play music for your life, what would be your purpose?
SAVE THE WORLD! And make it a better place...follow Bono's footsteps..

13. Do you think it takes a good instrument to make a good music player?
Your skills, your heart and good specifications of the instrument works together.

14. What position are you in the band?
Lead Vocalist/Rhythm guitarist

15. Do you wish to be a 'God' in any field of instrument?
Any aspiring guitarist would want to be a guitar god..and the answer is 'Yes'.

16. If you had the chance to play with your favourite band(s), who would it be?
Nine Inch Nails, Linkin Park, Slipknot, Dio, Mr Big (Although they broke up), and Marilyn

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Down in the corner..

Each day we grow older, every moment we grow wiser. In two weeks time, I will be turning 18. 23rd of June would be the day I would have to embark on a journey to manhood, the day that I would think of things on my own, the day that I would have to let the child in me shed it's skin and die off to take form of a much more matured polymorph being on Earth. To me, it's not about being able to grow more pubic hair (Kids, ask your parents what it is), experiencing the joy of alcohol, or even being able to go out during late nights. TO ME, it's always about taking greater challenges of what life has to offer, knowing what we should do when complicating situations occur around us. Many people who just turned 18 think that they are 'adults' and they have the 'freedom' to do what they've always wanted to do.

Despite the fact that I'm being cynical on this, to me honestly...when we grow up each day, I think that more of the issues that we deal with in our daily lives would likely to be more complicating, but hopefully we won't feel confused about. I always think that our 'job' had started ever since the day we were born, the day that we were given a thing called life. Only thing now is that, we're just going through a much different and advanced phase. And I would want to prepare myself for the future in a more efficient way and not get left behind. Knowing that I'll be moving to another place by next month and I'll be away from friends I know and some friends who I'm really close with. And out of all things, petrol prices are likely to affect almost everything. So that would mean I would have to drive less to see friends once I get my driver's license. Yes my dear readers, life is not easy but not that difficult as well..

Well, as Marilyn Manson once quoted ,"We live in a society of victimization, where people are much more comfortable being victimized than actually standing up for themselves."

We all run through our paths as a journey rather than a destination. There was one morning where I woke up and had this fair thought,"Have people ever thought about what they want to become in time, rather than becoming what they were before?". That scares a lot of people including me, but I now know for some reason that I'm aware of that and I'm willing to escape from the dimensional paradox of greater 'idiot parades' in this world. Everybody tends to take their own pace than to follow the pace to keep up with what others are progressing. As the late Abraham Lincoln once quoted,"I'm a slow walker, but I never walk backwards". I mean yeah, Matt Heafy started out as front man with his band 'Trivium' when he was 17 and he had such amazing talent with his vocals and guitar playing till now (aged 22). Well, that's why they call it natural talent. What I'm trying to reach out is that, we all have paths to follow and do all we can to achieve it (Even if it kills us).

So, come what (ever) may once I flip a new chapter of my life. Yeah, my goals are still set in my eyes and my heart burns with such passion for my culinary and musical journey; 'learning to cook more culinary dishes and improve on what I love doing most...MUSIC! (Especially settling on a new guitar to play a role in my passion)'.

Till then, my wishes to everybody, "Rock on with life! Even when s*it gets in the way!"
Here's a video for you guys!

LostProphets-Goodbye Tonight

Gonna miss it..

Hmmm, I just had a haircut last week..I'm back with my good old spiked-up hair, only with a bit of a 'tail' at the back of my hair this time. It's funny, I wanted to renew the title of my blog and I wanted to call it, 'The Adventures Of Mulletman'. But I got a bit fed up of that (mullet) hairstyle just so, after keeping it for more than 5 months...

And this was what my hair looked like, just last week..

I almost had the style that Trent Reznor (Nine Inch Nails) used to have..boohoo

I look like a Mat Rempit being pulled over by the cops! Hehehehe...


A sad moment for me to cut it, I miss keeping my hair and appreciating the joy of having that 'Rockstar' look. At least I still have 6 more months till the end of the year to grow my hair back.. give mullet another go? Maybe, but with a little bit of an 'edge' this time..
P.S. : Still can't beat you with the hair keeping, Edwin!

Saturday, June 07, 2008

The New Love..

What? What's up? New girlfriend? New car? Nope! Just loving a band I've recently discovered through Hitz.Tv's 'Rock Chart'. The band's called 'Disturbed'. Not to mention I'm kinda late for discovering this band compared to a lot of metal heads who have earlier. They sound like Killswitch Engage to me but the vocalist sounds like Jacoby Shaddix from Papa Roach than Howard Jones himself in the band (Killswitch Engage) (No, not Howard Jones the jazz musician). Anyways, just to end it short, here's a video from Disturbed-'Inside the fire'.


Shine Through The Rough Colours Underneath The Surface..

Some people would say that I'm two-faced, for they think that my sudden humble acts will be part of a first impression and a truer less pleasant side of me comes second. In my own words, I don't really reveal my true self till I am able to gain a proper trust from a person. Well, yeah..I admit that I'm inferior when it comes to my social skills. But not just there yet people! HAHAHA! Don't assume just yet. I'm sort of sad for myself for the fact that, let's say if I meet you for the first time, yes..a conversation will struck (that's 1) and in case you didn't know, my true colours begin to surface. And from there, you'd be the judge of what you think of me (that's 2).

Basically, this is what I think...

-If I meet you for the first time, I am very pleasant and friendly to you
-Well, obviously we get to know each other ( by exchanging information through asking questions and
receiving feedback?)
-And if I like you, I'll be your great buddy. If it's a so-so..well, maybe it takes time to build a friendly
-And if by chance that both of us individuals or in a group get to click one with another, then that's where the fun
comes. Laughing and screaming till you get to knock yourself out! Hehehehe..

But hear me out, I am not an anti-social person. That's the least you can expect me to be. But at the same time I know that at times I may be too quiet (But not shy) and I want to work on that very much and to be able to lift a smile on your face. But the trust has got to be THERE.

I know for a known fact that I can be really cynical (Yes, I find that annoying myself), but at the end of the day, I'm very open to a variety of things. But, that doesn't mean that you can violate my trust. Chill, life is great and people should be as well. Just do what I do, avoid malicious peeps. That way would save your own skin. But I can tell you this, I'm in the process of being more expressive in positive ways. Everybody learns, it's just how we apply it. But I always tell myself this; 'Don't preach what you don't practice'. I wonder if I ever learn from that. Well, hopefully I get to realize it soon enough..

Open up yourself and I may just be your good buddy :)

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

And behind it all there’s a price to be paid

I really fancy this song by Nine Inch Nails called 'The Hand That Feeds'. I've been listening to it for 4 hours today! (Crazy enough?) And it brought a whole lot of meaning to what many people have gone through (including me); Deceit, lies and betrayal. And it's choices we all have to make up for, for an effective bright future, yeah? Let's raise awareness and speak out against abusive authority in general. Does it deserve a big price to pay? Yes, I think so and let's not us Malaysians feel alienated to think that our country has issues to care about, it happens to the whole entire world. If I had the power to choose a future President or as they say, 'Prime Minister' in certain countries (Australia, Malaysia, England, Japan, or even Canada) it would be...

Trent Reznor, ladies and gentlemen!!!

*Round of applause*

Or even Marylin Manson for that matter? Imagine...Goth Country! *inside joke*

Here's a song from Nine Inch Nails, 'The Hand that feeds' (AGAIN! XD)


You're keeping in step
In the line
Got your chin held high and you feel just fine
Because you do
What you're told
But inside your heart it is black and it's hollow and it's cold

Just how deep do you believe?
Will you bite the hand that feeds?
Will you chew until it bleeds?
Can you get up off your knees?
Are you brave enough to see?
Do you want to change it?

What if this whole crusade's
A charade
And behind it all there's a price to be paid
For the blood
On which we dine
Justified in the name of the holy and the divine

Just how deep do you believe?
Will you bite the hand that feeds?
Will you chew until it bleeds?
Can you get up off your knees?
Are you brave enough to see?
Do you want to change it?

So naive
I keep holding on to what I want to believe
I can see
But I keep holding on and on and on and on

Will you bite the hand that feeds you?
Will you stay down on your knees? [8X]

Sunday, June 01, 2008

A miracle which broughts tears in my eyes...

I know for some reason, Scientists throughout the centuries are very skeptical about everything (even the smallest details) to find out what 'life' on Earth was all about. Sure, we all know Dinosaurs were extinct during the big meteorite hit which then later on formed new cells and created us (humans). We even now have modern medicine which cures a lot of diseases that people are infected with, which indeed IS truly a blessing for love and wisdom.

Just now at 3:30am, I couldn't sleep..I felt as if I had some kind of heartburn or maybe 'Angina' in my chest for that matter. I went online to find answers on how to cure it...there were limited solutions that I've found and I wasn't sure if I had aspirin at home, but even so...I refused to take any drugs without knowing the future side effects of what I may not know, as I've never studied Biology or Chemistry. Thank the Universe that my good friend, Sudhan was still online. I told him about my problem. And he said,"Dude, let me do distance healing for you". And I allowed him to try his best to heal me. Something told me to close my eyes and visualize 'white' or 'green' light during the healing process. I remember my mum telling me this, which is indeed VERY important during spiritual healing procedures. I trusted my mum, Sudhan and the Universe to help me.

3 minutes went like it was just 10 seconds ago. And I felt the pressure on my chest had gone lighter and the pains around my shoulder that I couldn't stand were disappearing. And Sudhan told me this,"Let me scan your body". He continued,"There is a coagulation in your stomach". And he continued healing me. After a while, he asked me,"Are you feeling alright?". I told him,"Free like a bird". Not saying that I couldn't believe it, but I just found the answers of the practicing method of Spiritual Healing. During those times when Mummy used to tell me things related to 'New Age' and 'Spiritual Healing', I was a a bit naive and thought that it may not be true. That caught me in a realization where there was a new 'Outlook in my eyes'. I jerked down in tears because I finally believed what I have seen, it happening tonight.

Which only leads to one thing, I wish to learn it too. Not because of gaining a new skill. But for goodness that I can give to others. Yes, I wish to make music to heal the world someday..but this is something which is unlimited to anyone who gives and takes. You may call me a fool for not believing it earlier but now I've outgrown from that small-boxed thinking I've been keeping to myself for quite sometime. I think it's time Physicians, Biologist, Chemists, Scientists and Earth Scientists should look into deeper detail about the flows of energy on Earth with much more research.

THANK YOU! (Mummy, Sudhan and The Universe)