Thursday, July 31, 2008
Finally could breathe
It was an OKAY rehearsal for a first time for me to practice with a band. And the practicing session atmosphere was cool. Alvin had the whole set of instruments (including piano and drums). And it was fun, after acoustic practice, the 3 of us went playing drums and electric guitars. Jammed on 'Master of puppets' on guitars and vocals, I could actually scream, but without the mic, it seemed kinda hard to hear myself. Now I know why bands stay commited (well...not all). It's fun playing music together once the musicianship is there. Next week, we'll be rehearsing at Von's place. Hope this gig works out for us.
Shifting is the 'hell' among jobs. It kinda ticks your life a lot. And the packing is worse than the moving. But in a split second (and with a blink of an eye) everything is over. After my shift, I really wanna build my own jam/recording studio so that I won't be paying the jam sessions in a public studio.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Music Tag Survey
1. Put your iTunes/ music player/ phone on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must put down the song name no matter what.
After you’ve answered all of the questions, tag 5 other people and then let them know they’ve been tagged to the meme themselves.
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1.What would best describe your personality?
Pantera-Walk
2.What do you like in a guy/girl?
Mr Big-Just Take My Heart
3.How do you feel today?
Richie Kotzen-Go Faster
4.What is your life's purpose?
Slipknot-Psychosocial
5.What is your motto?
Slipknot-All hope is gone
6.What do your friends think of you?
Joe Satriani-The Extremist
7.What do you think of your parents?
Lost Prophets-Tonight
8.What do you think about very often?
KORN-Blind
9.What do you think of your best friend?
Deep Purple-Smoke on the water
10.What do you think of your crush?
Mr Big-To be with you
11.What is your life story?
Stone Sour-30/30-150
12.What do you want to be when you grow up?
Dream Theater-The Dark Eternal Night
13.What do you think when you see your crush?
Mr Big-Green Tinted Sixties Mind
14.What do your parents think of you?
Lost Prophets-Rooftops
15.What do strangers think of you?
Metallica-Nothing Else Matters
16.What will they play at your funeral?
Avenged Sevenfold-Afterlife
17.What will you dance to at your wedding?
Mr Big-Nothing But Love
18.What is your hobby/interest?
Trivium-The Anthem
19.What do you think of your friends?
Avenged Sevenfold-Almost Easy
20.What song do you listen to when you are sad?
Trivium-Sadness Will Sear
21.What song do you air guitar to?
Lost Prophets-Shinobi vs Dragon Ninja
22.What should be your signature karaoke song?
Metallica-Master Of Puppets
23.What is your greatest desire?
David Cook-Time Of My Life
24.What does next year have in store for you?
Lamb Of God-Redneck
25.What's your outlook on life?
Slipknot-Surfacing
26.How will you die?
Avenged Sevenfold-Seize the day
27.Do people secretly lust after you?
Nine Inch Nails-Sunspots
28.The best advice you will ever get
Shadows Fall-Inspiration On Demand
29.What will I be doing for the next 3 months?
Yngwie Malmsteen-Far Beyond The Sun
30.What do you think of the person who tagged you?
Enya-Long long journey
31.What will your future mother-in-law be like?
Bullet For My Valentine-Waking the demon
32.What is the favourite song of the doctor who will help deliver your baby?
Mr Big-Daddy, brother, lover, little boy
33.If you wrote a book, what would it be about?
Nickelback-Photograph
34.What sort of world ruler would you be?
Linkin Park-Shadow Of The Day
35.Will you ever get a dog or cat?
Lobo-Me and you and a dog named Boo
36.What would you say at your Oscar/Nobel prize acceptance speech?
Metallica-Sad But True
37.What is your superpower?
Slipknot-Heretic Anthem/555 666
38.Why are you attracted to enigmatic brooders?
Slipknot-New Abortion
Now, I shall tag Alvinkei and Tabby
A trick from the bug system
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Time planning complexity can be the uber suck...
My first full length gig, how awesome is that? I certainly need to make that moment spectacular. By next Thursday, Alvin and I MUST go shop for an acoustic guitar. Here is the overall set list that we're still in decision to play
16th aug @ subang rotaract installation (15SONGS NEEDED)
WE ARE THE SINNERS
-VON
-Static Spike
-AVK
POOL OF SONGS:
1 im yours
2 mungkin nanti
3 yue liang dai biao wo de xin
4 yesterday
5 umbrella
6 you and me
7 a mi manero
8 to be with you
9 bad day
10 bubbly
11 more than words
12 apologize
13 with you
14 empty
15 through her eyes
16 the river
17 stand by me
18.Nothing else matters
LEAD VOCALS:
VON:
fool to cry-Rolling stones
home-Daughtry
i will follow you in the dark-death cab for cutie
more than words-extreme
can't help fallin in love-elvis presley
Jie Juan:
circle-Slipknot
through her eyes-Dream Theater
be with you-Mr Big
nothing else matters-Metallica
you and me-Lifehouse
AVK:
mungkin nanti-peter pan
tears- Japanese song
a mi manero-Spanish song
i'm yours-Jason Mraz
special request : birthday song + auld lang syne
DRESS CODE: SMART CASUAL
WE NEED: 3 MIC, 3 MIC STANDS
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
The Avalanches of life..
And nothing is more worse than my grandma demanding and nagging at me to carry more heavy loads, rather than to say,"Good morning" or any other daily greetings you get each time once you get out of bed every morning. I don't know why that sets my temper really high, but I guess when things get a bit negatively funny, I react anger towards it..because it is just wrong? That's how my parents brought me up. That is, to be well mannered wherever you go, but if people piss me off..that would just be a different ball game. Of course, I know my grandma is already so old..but sometimes things aren't the way they're supposed to be, because there are some cracks within the whole family of mine (Not my immediate family of course). That is why, I don't write much about my relatives.
Well, call me bitter..but I'm a conservative person. I'm a person who keeps his own word. But I wouldn't simply make promises for myself but I tend to make attempts of doing things I plan to do and try to achieve it, if it doesn't work out, I'll try again. There is no success without failure, so why 100% guarantee a promise? Chances are, it's hard to keep. Verbally speaking and signing off with body languages, whoever dares to change me for who I am, trust me..it's hard to change my qualities because I'm not a follower, but neither I refer myself as a leader. But I lead my own life than to help lead some others. But I'm always a helping hand for those who I think deserve to have. Now that's not a positive or negative thing, but that reward has to be earned. No wonder there's a thing called 'Reputation' for people.
Maybe it is to ensure myself that I won't be taken for granted. It's just to be able to save my own skin and make my life much more fulfilled rather than to let what others think of me. Attention seeking is never my style. It's a senseless sympathetic way of saying,"Look what's up with my life. I can't take it anymore, I need to grasp onto hope and await my future". I think that's rather 'emo' in that sense. So, what's a hard life then? To me, it's either you're looking out for more difficulty or if you don't want it, you could solve it accordingly and hijack yourself from it after that. Sure, the crappy stuff tends to sustain at some period of time, but I guess the level of tolerance determines how strong you are. What I would do is just sing a song. :D. That's life.
As they say,"Step YO game up!"
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Psychosocial
Slipknot-Psychosocial
Friday, July 18, 2008
Of Prosthetics And Living Souls: The Dawn Of A New Era (The view of a spiritual atheist)
Well, it seems like the world has changed dramatically throughout the centuries ever since mankind started out the rise of civilization and the set on civil rules to maintain peace and harmony on Earth. They said God created us, do you side Darwin's Evolutionary theory? Sometimes I do wonder why Dinosaurs were never stated in the Bible. Religious values that add so-called enhancement in our daily lives to follow what we've been told of. Taken from the inspired explanations of the 'Zeitgeist' documentary, part of it says that man has been mislead without paying heed to what the truth is and what is not, or despite to conclude of what is right or wrong without the much use of rationality. Cavemen started out right after the extinction of Dinosaurs. Don't you think cells created us? Was the bible ever meant for social control. How sure are they about a place called 'Hell'? When people die, they can't tell you where they are after that. How sure is the book that hell ever exists?
"They must find it difficult...Those who have taken authority as the truth, Rather than the truth as the authority",-Gerald Massey, Egyptologist
This is where religion falls into place. What do some people do when they have the edge of breaking down? They turn to the 'book' and find their sense of belonging till they begin to be convinced that there's an invisible man in the sky, watching over them and circulating over the sun, while he pours his love over them and teaches them the real view of what life is all about, praying that that man would solve their problems with his own hands (Why can't man just help themselves?). Yet, will send them to the depths of hell if they ever committed sinful acts. Why should we feel limited or worried towards these issues, while we could reconcile those mistakes or wrong doings and start over as fresh-minded humans? FYI, Buddha never called himself 'God'. He was a teacher..
Doesn't it just lay burden on our shoulders? Regret is part of karma which are the wonders of the universe with divine presence. But feeling insecure for the matter regarding religion is never an option for something that is unproven or unforeseen (god)? It proves that it is such a crutch for the weak minded who just follow and not make real choices of their own, and yet to follow the conditions of whatever it may lead to, upon the exaggerated claims...religion.
In the tradition of nontheism (agnosticism) however, it is very direct that the case history are not particularly important. What is particularly important, is 'here' and 'now'. We try experiencing what is available there, on the spot. There's no point in taking the past with us as it doesn't exist of what we could have NOW. We are always interacting with such intelligence to make reality checks on what we are interacting around us in this world, unconditionally. We could never invite the past into the future. That conclusion opposes the reasons why we; seek religion, have war and complain to society. I bet this a secular humanist could explain..
"Spirituality....is particular term which actually means; 'A dealing with intuition."
-Chogyam Trungpa Minpoche-
Here's an interesting research on very similar attribute claims of how described gods came about.
Horus
Egyptian god of 3000 BC
-Born of a virgin on December 25th
-Star in the East
-Adored by 3 Kings
-Teacher at 12
-Baptized/Ministry at 30
-12 Disciples
-Performed miracles such as; Healing the sick and walking on water
-Referred to as 'The Light'/"Lamb Of God"
-Crucified/Dead For 3 Days/Resurrected
Attis
Greece-1200 BC
-Born of a virgin on December 25th
-Crucified/dead for 3 days/ resurrected
Krishna
India-900 BC
-Born of a virgin with the star of the East
-Performed miracles with his disciples
-Upon his death, he was resurrected
Dionysus
Greece-500 BC
-Born of a virgin on December 25th
-Was a traveling teacher who performed miracles such as turning water into wine
-Referred to as "King of kings", "Alpha and Omega"
-He was resurrected upon his death
Mithra
Persia-1200 BC
-Born of a virgin on December 25th
-Had 12 disciples
-Performed miracles
-Dead for 3 days and thus resurrected
-Referred to as "The Light", "The truth" and many others
-Worship day was Sunday
Jesus Christ
-Born of a virgin on December 25th
-Star in the East
-12 Disciples
-Performed miracles
-Dead for 3 days and thus was resurrected
There are numerous of these saviors of different periods from all over the world, with these attributes in common. Question remains, why these attributes? Why the virgin birth on December 25th? Why death for 3 days and thus resurrected? Why 12 disciples? The birth sequences were totally astrological.
"Sirius" was known as "The Star Of The East". On December 24th, aligns with the 3 brightest stars known as 'Orions Belt'. Those 3 stars of Orions Belt are what they are called in ancient times, 'The Three Kings'. Both of these which point out the direction of the sunrise on December 25th. This is why the 'The Three Kings' follow the star of the east, to locate the sunrise. The birth of the Sun.
This is not the christian cross which you see on top of churches, it is known as a crux. The pagan adaptation of the Zodiac cross.
A deeper reference can be looked through from the Zeitgeist documentary.
"We don't wanna be unkind or cause hurt to anybody but just wanna be factual and academically correct on what we understand and known to be true. Christianity, just not based on truth.",-Jordan Maxwell
May the force be with you..
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
A player's personal point of view..
Many people tend to think that practicing hard and being a good player would be able to handle any bad or good guitar. Well, that my friend...is absolutely wrong. When I play, I personally want comfort out of my fretboard to get great playability. Most professional and touring concert artists now insist the guitar to play very well, to be a friendly ally with the demands of guitar performance. This is true for amateur players as well. It's always best to befriend with an instrument than to use it as a 'weapon' to rock on. If it ever fails you in playing, you may hate it sometimes. So I guess that's why set up services are always important.
My 'baby' has been with me on and off stages for quite a while and from last month, I've realized I've been playing with an unbalanced saddle all this while. How crazy is that, maybe once the 'hearing' of tones gets to mature, maybe that's how I get to notice..
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Those days were gone..
Here is Metallica's 'Master Of Puppets'
As we all would like to quote part of the lyrics from the song,"MASTER! MASTER! Master of puppets I'm pulling your strings! Twisting your mind and smashing your dreams!"
Monday, July 14, 2008
Barricade
I'm currently looking for an acoustic guitar with a preamp pickup. My budget is up to RM500 or more, any of you readers who wants to sell your acoustic guitar, please let me know :D. Probably a Yamaha, Ibanez or a Takamine. Thanks. Has to be mint or 9/10 condition
Friday, July 11, 2008
Venom Rain (The Melt Method)
Band:The Melt Method
Song:Venom Rain
(Verse)
A pa-ra-site! You've seeded with ease
Don't know how to handle your disease!
This abuse seems so constrained
Judging that you're so insane!
(This cuts!) my life in half
Dry it up and there's nothing left
Leaving blood signs down a path
Sticking in ;"psychopathic, mandatory, satisfactory"
(F***!) This is enough!
Take that garbage and throw it out!
What can you find right in this stream!?
Is this what you're feeding!?
(Chorus)
I can't seem to stand your miseries
It seems to break me so miserably
You can't seem to see yourself already!
You may as well just-affect me!
Why can't you just come and kill me!?
Venom rain! (x5)
(Verse)
Shut off the system and reject the lies!
Ever thought you were by my side..
Witness the sodomy and start blaming somebody!
The 7 deadly sins
That never been forbid
Doesn't it make you sick?
Where does the justice system hold?
What could've made us turn so cold?
Would we make the nation split and divide!?
Or are we just gonna stare and walk by!?
(F***!) This is enough!
Take that garbage and throw it out!
What can you find right in this stream!?
Is this what you're seeking!?
(Chorus)
I can't seem to stand your miseries
It seems to break me so miserably
You can't seem to see yourself already!
You may as well just-affect me!
Why can't you just come and kill me!?
Venom rain! (x5)
(Bridge)
Make it discontinue!
The rectifying problem still tends to grow
Is it the end of the road!?
It's the end of everything that we hold!!!!!??
I would never die, please shed some LIGHT! x2
(Chorus)
I can't seem to stand your miseries
It seems to break me so miserably
You can't seem to see yourself already!
You may as well just-affect me!
Why cant' you just come and kill me!? x2
Venom Rain! (x5)
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Most expensive guitar in the world
“Blackie”, Eric Clapton’s favorite mid-career modified Strat has been surpassed in value and is no longer the most expensive guitar ever, despite that it was bought for $950,000 USD in 2004 by a guitar archaeologist.
The latest most expensive electric guitar in the world dethroned its predecessor at an auction in Doha, Qatar on November 16th, 2005. The Strat was signed by several rock musicians to benefit a tsunami charity, ‘Reach out to Asia’. It was bought one year ago by Qatar’s royal family for a million dollars and donated back to the Asia Program, bringing in $2.7 million USD at the more recent auction, whose attendees included Former President Bill Clinton. Technically, the guitar has generated a total of $3.7 million USD, making it the most expensive guitar yet.
Signees of this expensive electric guitar included Mick Jagger, Keith Richards, Eric Clapton, Brian May, Jimmy Page, David Gilmour, Jeff Beck, Pete Townsend, Mark Knopfler, Ray Davis, Liam Gallagher, Ronnie Wood, Tony Iommi, Angus & Malcolm Young, Paul McCartney, Sting, Ritchie Blackmore, Def Leppard, and Bryan Adams, the coordinator of the project.
Survey
2.Who is the person you trust the most?
My sister
3.Are you in love?
With someone, go figure.
4.If you have a dream come true..
Being able to travel around the world playing live concerts with my favourite bands.
5.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Of course!
6.What's your goal for this year?
Accomplish the things I've planned for this year.
7.Do you believe in eternity?
Eternity exists in our soul, not in our physical selves
8.Have you ever broken a person's heart that he/she wanted to commit suicide?
Never.
9.What feeling do you love the most?
Satisfaction in the sense of accomplishment.
10.What are the requirements for your other half?
Someone who is really understanding. Knows what is best for herself and I in life, so that complications won't occur. Someone who I can really talk to about ANYTHING (I think I
found the one), supports me in doing my passion. And being able to treat each other well.
11.What kind of feeling do you hate the most?
Anger, I lose control over it and it's BAD. But I'm trying to control it..
12.Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
Only good friendship, because it usually lasts.
13.What do you want to do in the future?
Open up my own restaurant, managing two jamming studios and take my chances on being successful in the music business
14.What is the most important thing in your life?
Family.
15. How did you feel last night?
Tired.
16.Who do you hope to be always there for you?
I'm independent and I'm my own man, I don't always have to depend on people.
17.When do you think the world will end ?
Someday, when the whole world is mismanaged
18.The world ends tomorrow. What will you do?
Organize a big gig to perform for the last time with a band, spend time with family, and kiss the girl I'm liking now.
19.What do you think of the person that tagged you?
A very nice and kind person..:D
20.What do you want to know right now?
What life has to offer me as I go along..
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Rise from the ashes...
What it's like being on stage? It feels like you 'own' the world in some way for some period of time and the crowd cheers you on if you did a good job. After the show, you feel like you've accomplished a great thing (If you do well). Like William Shakespear once said,"All the worlds a stage". Words of wisdom from the great poet. I'm thinking Metallica's 'Nothing Else Matters', Dream Theater's 'Through Your Eyes' and maybe Lifehouse's 'You and me'. Even when performing as a soloist shredder, it does give a sense of sensation when the crowd is in aw and it does feel good, but to me personally, it gets really repetitive and boring when you start to mature in the music line. Well, that's what I think of it. But singing while playing the guitar has a different feel, choose the songs that mean to you the most and the vent of feelings in your soul towards the melodies would give a great value of beautifying the heart inside.
I DO wanna step onto the stage with blinding spot lights with my fellow partners and embrace the spirit of gigging in the good name of music. The time is NOW and not later. Well, I think it's a good opportunity to practice at home and get out there and get used to performing live. I remember the time I stood up on the school stage, while forming the classical guitar playing pose and started playing, I couldn't really see the crowd. And I felt ashamed because I want to see the expressions and feelings that the 'sea' of people till the back end had.
Here's Metallica's 'Nothing Else Matters'.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
The power within...
*To readers who have read this post earlier, price revised. Credits to my friend, MXV*
Core 2 Duo compatible motherboard- RM280
Core 2 Duo Processor-RM370+
Nvidia Geforce 8-400+
1GB DDR2 RAM-RM50
19" monitor-Rm570
Casing-Free
DVD driver x20-RM195
160gb Hard Drive-RM120
Grand Total: roughly around RM1415 (Before discount and without monitor)
With Monitor cost-RM1985
Ain't that
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Girls....
(Sorry for the bad photoshop editing, I'm not a wiz at it)
This turns out to be the very first topic that I'll be writing about among all of my posts.
'Girls'..right.
Well, you may or may not be able to tell that I'm never a lady's man. To tell you the truth, I may never know the answer myself. But I've never gotten a serious girlfriend before, but so what right? Fears of being a future bachelor? (That's mandatory for the loners), desperate for finding a girl? (That's for people who got nothing better to do) .
In this, most of us 'Guys' know that girls are very mysterious in their own ways, till you wish to swim inside their heads to find out what they think about you. Sure, there are some desperate chicks out there who pray to someday find a hunk such as Brad Pitt :S. But of course, if some girls can be so picky about guys, yeah why can't we (guys) do the same, right? But in MY point of view, why can't a girl just sit down and analyze a guy and find something unique about him?
Yeah, I guess I've done it many times to ensure on whom I'm mixing with.
From my own personal experience, I've been through so many heart breaks till I've suddenly became immune to it. I never knew what their ulterior motives were. In fact, they've always wanted to know about me and it's awkward if I ask them a question about them, they'll just sweep the answers under the carpet. I honestly don't know what my flaws are, but if I know that I talk too much about myself, but I guess that's how I take questions and answer them. I'll keep them short this time.
Maybe they're looking for someone fun loving and always chirpy. Unlike me, I'll always end up cautious and maybe a bit serious. But I'm trying to be fun loving and chirpy? :D. Maybe it's for the fact that I've liked so many kinds of girls but I end up get turned down by them. Maybe they were not the right companion for me? Maybe they expect too much out of me? I've always wanted to find the answers to these questions. Those are the reasons why I'm so cautious, not that I'm afraid of rejection.
A lot of aunties and uncles tell me that I'm decent, handsome(not being vain or too full of myself) and really nice. And one aunt asked me,"Why not get a girlfriend as a companion?". I then told her,"I guess I haven't found the right one for me yet." But I guess life is like that, one may never know who they may end up with. But I don't ask for much, just a person with inner and outer beauty. That's all. But I guess life is all about being patient and make something right happen..
Here's Lifehouse's 'Broken'. Enjoy...
Lifehouse-Broken
Friday, July 04, 2008
Never gone..
Yes, all of us try to move on and not look back, but I sort of miss the good old days where there was a real thing called 'family'. It was filled with such laughter and joy that the world can't buy. Nothing can compensate with that, especially when losing a friend (despite death), which I don't give my 2 cents about. Because I've dealt with the most painful memory in my life. But that would never break the bond of this family, because she is never gone.
Whoever walks into our lives do not matter to us, except close relative members and good friends. I'm saying this pretty frankly, because I don't believe in a thing called 'Best friend' in friends but I believe in a thing called 'True friend'. This is where music and love helped me grasp upon my needs to feel happy. That is where my anger insulates and converts into my lyrics. Few days ago, friends that I know had betrayed me behind my back. Thinking that I wouldn't know, but actually..I do. You know, the stood up kinds. There was no need to lash my anger on anybody (or to those kind of people) because that would be utterly senseless and stupid, so then..it gave me so many great ideas on a song that I've been working on for some time and I wrote with my heart out and had thought of so many melodic ideas for it.
At the end of the day, they wouldn't be able to turn back the clock and correct the things that they've done wrong. Ain't that sad? Well...since they're still doing it, they would hurt themselves the most than it would to me. But I guess dumb idiots like that may never realize. Hahaha! Unreasonable backstabbing and despising never gets you anywhere, but it only gives you an excuse to tell yourself,"I'm an asshole!". Well, it takes all kinds to make the world, but it takes all kinds of idiots to ruin the world as well, if we let them.
"Now Im not pretty and Im not cool
But Im fat and Im ugly and proud - so f*** you!",Corey Taylor (Slipknot)
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Of Dead leaves and living roots... (by S.Spike)
Long have I seen another day
Or had I just seen another ruthless face
Long have I suffered before you knew
When was the last heart you just threw
Terrible, just terrible as it burns to ashes
And all good karma collapses
Young and naive
Doesn't mean you should leave
Left me hanging
Doesn't mean I'll start forgetting
Long after a time we start shedding like dead leaves
We still contempt with our living roots and be
*This poem is dedicated to those who left their friends that are not worth being with anymore*
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Wanted for real...
Well, today I went to watch 'Wanted' with Saiful at UO mall in the evening. It was a pretty good movie. The plot proves to be really impressive. And the great thing about it is that, the movie is really unpredictable (Angelina is..). The special effects are great, the stunts and actions were well coordinated and the story line was pretty good. Wish I could tell you what the movie is all about, but I guess I'll spoil it for you guys (Angelina is..). All in all, superb movie to be exact (Angelina is..). Owh alright! Angelina Jolie was pretty hot in the set. Other than that, it was pretty cool that the movie played the song 'Everyday is exactly the same' by Nine Inch Nails. Yeah, keep playing good music Hollywood! Don't play image music. Well, yes..I'm against 70% of modern mainstream music. Probably because they don't really last that long after a while (IMHO). I wish music was like the 80's or even during 2001, where good bands such as Papa Roach, Crazy Town and etc came about. Thank heavens that 'The Rock Show' exists on Channel V. If you guys wanna watch a real assassin flick, watch 'Wanted'! I believe that the upcoming movies are gonna be a blast for this month. What can I say? Thanks to modern technology and great special effects. :D
Anyway, here's Nine Inch Nails' 'Everyday is exactly the same'