Tuesday, September 30, 2008

The Wreckoning, the sickening..

Well, to be in my shoes..it's hard to bare the pain of being rejected. Nope, I got a lot of friends. But it hurts when you're rejected by a girl. At first, whenever my friends had relationship problems, I would always foolishly say,"Hmm, you'll always find the right one for you. Don't worry. It's her loss anyways". When it came to my turn, oooo I hated her because I thought she was not being nice. But at the same time, it hurts so bad. And I had something telling inside me,"Awww damn, why did this happen to me. It hurts". Well, probably because it was a special date with her and I could remember 90% of what we did and what we said to each other for like 1 1/2 hours on the bench together? Yeah, very long despite all the walking we did around the mall. I thought that I've found 'THE ONE'. But no, it was just a fairy tale fantasy that most guys are delusional about, before they get dumped. No wonder I was so cautious before I could ever trust her, I should have kept my own code and being skeptical instead of not being serious or at times quiet just because I wanna observe before I could consider her to be part of my life. But nope, I dropped the ball and fell into the hole. I don't think I was being too serious, I was just being careful. A lesson learned indeed.

I'll always tell myself this,"Well, it's her loss anyway. I'll get someone better". But nope, it leaves a small mental scar in my head. But I guess that's part and parcel of life, some things just won't let you forget. But you gotta have to take it as a man, no matter what. Life is full of ups and downs, for all you know, she might come crawling back to you. You'll just never know (In fact, I myself may never know). Worst thing that could happen is to see her pictures, and you'd bring up several thoughts like; Why did I get rejected/Why did I let her go/Why this/Why that. You get what I mean. But we all in the end gotta get on and forget about it.

The thing is, we can't have everything we want at once. Well, I'm happy that I've made 2 of my Guitars my companion. Here's my friend's philosophy as to why guitars are better than girls . It's quite amusing. (Specially for people who have GAS, like me)

Why guitars are better than women
* You can share your Guitar with your friends.
* Guitars don't care how many other Guitars you've played
* Guitars don't care if you look at other Guitars.
* Guitars don't care if you buy Guitar magazines.
* Your Guitar doesn't care if you never listen to it.
* Your Guitar won't care if you leave up the toilet seat.
* Your parents won't remain in touch with your old Guitar after you dump it.
* Guitars don't insult you if you're a bad player.
* Your Guitar never wants a night out with the other Guitars.
* You can play your Guitar the first time you meet it, without having to take it to dinner, see a movie, or meet its mother.

Oh well, there are a lot people out there in the world. It's time to get to know more people and I may just find the right one.

(Justification! Justification! Justification, Cheah Jie Juan!)

What? It is kinda true right? But oh well, my inner conscience may be right. Now she is being occupied with another guy. I couldn't do anything but move on. Unless I could really get over her and not more. Then I'll be free. But, who knows for sure right? Humans like us are complicating species after all..

Here's Slipknot's 'Dead Memories'. From their new album, 'All Hope Is Gone'

Thursday, September 25, 2008

The Art Of Frying 'Maggi Goreng'

I recently found a step-by-step way of cooking Maggi Goreng at home. Great, then I don't have to always spend RM4.50 at my regular mamak stall for a plate of Maggi Goreng. Special thanks to Green Apple for showing readers the recipe and ways of cooking it.

When it comes to instant noodles, I like mine either dried, or fried. Occasionally I'll go for the soup, that is, only occasionally.

This is what I often make using instant noodles - maggi mee goreng. It is very similar to mamak style cooking, except mine is simpler, in the sense of complexity and number of ingredients.

Ingredients: (for 2 person)
  • Instant noodles 2 packets.
  • Vege (can be beansprouts, sliced cabbage, sliced Nappa, sawi ... ). If you have tomatoes on hand you can add them in too.
  • 1 egg
  • curry powder 1 tbsp
  • sugar - a pinch
  • crisp shallots
  • 1 clove of garlic, chopped.
  • half lemon, or 1 lime
  • oil
  • (optional) chilli powder

  1. Cook the instant noodles till soft. Drain, and keep it aside.
  2. Place wok over medium-high heat, lightly fry the chopped garlic.
  3. Add in the vege (if you're using bean sprouts, do not add in now, see step # 7), stir fry for 1-2 minute.
  4. Add in noodles. Continue frying.
  5. Add in curry powder, (chilli powder, if you like it spicier), a pinch of sugar, and half to entire packet of seasoning (that comes together with the instant noodle) to taste. You can add in a lil' bit of soy sauce if you want to.
  6. Push noodles to the edge of wok to create a 'well' in the middle of the pan. Crack in the egg. Stir them around to scramble them and when the egg start to set, combine with the noodles.
  7. Add in bean sprouts, fry on high heat for another 1-2 min.
  8. Squeesh in the lemon/lime juice to the noodles. Garnish the top with crisp shallots.

Monday, September 22, 2008


I've somehow experienced idiot-adult behavior yesterday. Last week, I was browsing through the JamTank forum and saw an Original Paul Gilbert Instructional DVD, half-priced for sale by some guy named Simon. I quickly private messaged the guy saying that I want to buy the DVD from him. At first, we were supposed to deal on one of the days of last week, but I immediately informed him that I was busy for the whole week.

*Jumping into the next week which was this week*

It was September 21st (Sunday), He text messaged me and this was how the conversation went;

Simon: Eh dude, what time you coming to KLCC and COD (Cash On Delivery)?

Me: You told me you got another buyer buying your other DVD's at 3pm am I right?

Simon: Yeah, you can come anytime. I'll be around KLCC the whole afternoon.

Me: Okay, I'll go run some errands and I'll sms you when I'm on the way.

Simon: Ok.

*At 3:30pm*

Simon called me and asked me;

Simon: OI! Where are you? I've been waiting here you know *With a rude tone*

Me: I told you what, by this time I'm gonna do some running around. And I was gonna sms you on what time I can set to meet up with you within the afternoon.

Simon: Where got sms? I never even receive also? *Disengages Phone Call*

I bet he wasn't really smart by actually not letting me explain the plans to him before he canceled the call

*10 seconds later*

Simon sms'ed me saying,"Where's your sms? I don't wanna ever deal with you anymore. You go find yourself another dealer"

I was sooo furious till I replied,"You're such an impatient idiot that many people I believe cannot stand in JamTank. I'm glad that I'm not dealing with you because you even lack at manners when talking on the phone. I don't wanna stand down to your level, just be aware of what you say next time before people take your word for it."

*Later then he did not reply me*

So for those who are new or wanting to join the JamTank forum, just be aware to whom you're dealing with and deal with the people who have a good reputation in Buying/Selling/Trading. Do not ever make deals with a member named 'simon 8612'. I promise you, he'll make you go crazy.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Oh no....

This is has got to be the craziest moments of my life. Yesterday I was at the backseat of the car, while my sister driving around PJ. When she stopped by the time the traffic light turned 'red', a Myvi came by and stopped right beside our car. Man, it was magic! She was like the prettiest girl in KL! The motor sport's supermodel look with the 'chili padi' body. Man, just right. Kept starring at her though, her looks really killed me.

But too bad, that I can't see her eyes properly because she was wearing a pair of Sunglasses. Boohoo for that. I kinda notice that quite a number of hot women drive Myvi these days.
Anyways, here's Nine Inch Nail's 'The Collector' (The best band ever!)

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Everyone but me...(The backdoor that holds no secrets)

As far as I'm in the process of clearing my head up, seriously..I hate being left behind. Sometimes it's good to ask yourself this,"What have I done so far? Everyone else that I know seems to be enjoying on what they're doing and that makes me feel so f****d".

It is kinda good to realize and take forth in action at times like these where you just don't want any obvious rubbish. Back when I was a kid, I remember the times I hated whenever my parents compare me with their friends' kids and follow them as a role model. That pushed my motivation to try and make attempts to succeed in things that I need and want to do. But those people of some which I know are not what they seem to be. I had a peaceful conversation about this with my distant neighbour over at lunch one day and he somehow disliked it too.

It somehow makes you feel bad and selfish later on. Bitter as I am by writing all of this, I think it has an inner purpose to end and make myself turn over a new leaf. Some of the people I know are now selfish, self-centered, ranting, bragging old brats who fake their humbleness to be able to look at themselves in the mirror and say,"When I'm better than most of them, to me..they're rubbish". Well, I don't blame them for trying to be like that. But it's always been some of the reasons why I get easily aggravated with the small details of persistent people or situations. I never did want to compare myself with people who have better achievements than I do. I don't know why, I still feel like some dude who's never even made a friction of a start to make out a 'Wow' factor for my own personal achievements.

It's times like these where your own identity counts than be a follower, and sometimes you'll get upset because it didn't work out the way you want it to be on your own effort. I'm too tired of doing it already, but I'm still on my ground to stray away, comparing differences with people's higher qualities, if I do that, I'm letting myself down because I wouldn't be doing my job to excel in myself. I am ME. But I do treat people around me well if they treat me like a real friend and vice versa. Maybe, it's because of the wave length between people which determines the friendship whether it's meant to be friend with that person or not. I've always been into people who encourage me in a supportive and positive way during my rough times to piece myself back together and move on. There's no sign of following what they do, but it relies on yourself.

But I think I know why the decisions that I've made for myself in the past have been a damage done to others. Probably because that I've had a few regrets that I've had which changed everything around me to turn out to be just wrong. Some friends that I know yet also think I'm too cynical (as the way I think). **** the things they say about me for not having a religion. I've never treated them with such unfairness and just because I don't depend on God except myself. That doesn't make me a sinner for not believing, it's a choice to do so. And yes, I do help my own friends who are in need. Who says I need a religion to teach me values? But I am where am standing right here. At least I've got family and friends who I can keep. There are times where man has to make his own choices with deep conscience, not through the cycle of human nature behavior.

This is me reinventing and growing through experience, not just to be someone who you can 'Go-Figure' about...

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

A young lad with full of hope

I remember when I was 16 (The year when I started playing guitar), I've always had a few goals on being able to play guitar better day by day. But I guess running before walking has it's pros and cons into it. I can't say that I was a fast or slow learner, but the initiative has it's insights on the frustration of not being better than other players, but just to get better at it. I can't say that I'm a good player, but I play what I can to be where I am at now. It's been more than 2 years of me practicing shred and learning songs and jamming with other musicians to gain performing awareness. But I think it's all about choices we have to make to play different aspects of music right after a certain grounding in foundation of music.

Today, I was at Kinokuniya bookstore in KLCC to look around for a book to read while waiting for my dad to finish his meeting at somewhere in the complex. When I made a stop at the music section to look at guitar tab books, I saw a girl at around the tender age of 14 or 15 years old, picking up and browsing through guitar book songs (Eric Clapton, Led Zeppelin, Eric Johnson and etc) and in her face, I can tell that she hopes on willing and being able to play those songs one day. Then, her mother found her looking at the shelf of guitar song books and she started lecturing her in Cantonese. I couldn't really fully understand what she was saying but I know enough to make out a pattern on what she meant in translation ( I know, I'm what you call a 'Banana' in my own Ethnic lingual).

She was basically telling her daughter to look for beginner's guitar books than to look forward to the other books at the moment. Though she seemed upset, I don't blame her. But who can argue out of this, baby steps first. I remember the time when I was 9 and I kept telling my mum that I wanted to learn guitar. It was like;

Me: Mummy, I wanna play guitar like Deep Purple. It's soo cool. *Humming to Deep Purple song*

Mummy: Yeah, but first learn the basics before you can play electric guitar.

Me: Awwww..*frowns and mumbles* (I love the sounds of what the electric guitar makes)

Mummy: Start on lessons

Me: Okay! *Filled with an expression of determination*

I started lessons when I was 9 and I gave up easily. Because my guitar teacher was teaching and lecturing me technical stuff about guitar which I was totally clueless about. I couldn't cope well on it, so I gave up until I was inspired once more to play right after hearing the riff pattern of 'Duality' by Slipknot.

But it was good that I knew the basic chords and finger picking styles. Self-taught was all I did and I caught up pretty fast and started to go abit slow as the techniques that I'm trying to master are getting tougher, but it's natural. Bottom line is, practice and play the kind of music YOU like.

*Off topic*
I so want this axe just for modifying project:

SX 62' Stratocaster

Thursday, September 04, 2008

The new member in the family..

I recently got rid of my Epiphone guitar (goodbye) and got a new one from Chamber's Music. It ain't a Gibson, it ain't a Taylor and certainly not a Martin. But all I could say that it's a handmade custom axe made in Vietnam. And this guitar certainly proves that you don't need to have a famous logo to have a good axe. It's kinda cool that I now own 2 hand made guitars.

All I can say is..it's beautiful, the sound is great and it's a looker. For all you GAS (Guitar Acquiring Syndrome) monkeys who wonder what are the specs, well..here they are;

Solid european Spruce top
Solid Light figured MAHOGANY SIDE AND BACK
Quatersawn Walnut Neck
Solid rosewood Fingerboard
Medium frets
CUTAWAY at 15th fret
Maple pucflings
REAL WOOD binding
Real Rossetes
Abalone headstock inlay
Indain Rosewood headstock veneer
Martin headstock shapeBone Nuts and saddles
Tortoise Pearl Tuners Elixir
And this baby is compareable to Mid-Range Martins and Taylors..very sweet.

Monday, September 01, 2008

All Hope Is Gone

Finally got the new Slipknot album today, 'All Hope Is Gone' (Released on the 28th of August). All you 'Maggots'. Go. Get the album... :D