Friday, December 25, 2009

Hard line

And so Christmas it was. Went to Church (What the?! Jie Juan going to Church?!) as I was invited by a friend to some function on Christmas day. Yes, gone for an early morning preach. As usual, I try to absorb and understand the pastor's preaching but I can honestly say, that I'm far from convinced with Christianity (still).

From what I see, I still don't see the point of people giving too much credit to what-they-call 'God'. To me, I finally come to a conclusion that religion may teach good morality and be comforting to some, but it fails short in terms of the truth about life. Why am I coming towards this bold direction of saying so? Because...

1. If God was so superior and all powerful enough to make the world a better place, the world
wouldn't be in its bad shape it is now

Religion may teach you about good life but not the truth about how life came to be.

3. Birth of Christ through virgin mother Mary? Makes me wonder what is REAL in this world anymore.

It makes me question,"How can they not question their faith? Can they see that their 'truth' sounds more fiction than fact?!". If I can't feel 'His' presence, wouldn't it be okay if I ended up being apathetic? What is life without the freedom of 'Choice', 'Will' and 'Self-Belief'? These are the questions that I've come across which I wonder how the Christians could give me either a good answer or a good 'bull'. Enlighten me...

I think that people should remain personal about their religious beliefs instead of hard-selling the same to others with no-religion or of different religions. To me, one must learn to choose and think out rationally before acting. Instead of following like a flock of sheep and live by faith alone. I see that there too much self-justification and it makes me wonder about things like speaking in tongues. I wonder what actually goes on in their conscious minds as they go about using this acquired "gibberish-talking" skill to try convince others that this silly parade is actually a so-called trance. Seems more like like "conscious mass hysteria" oxymoron to me.

Absolute faith does not give much room for choice; it cannot. So it will conflict with others like me with strong 'non-belief'? Christians love to assume and hate questioning. Sorry, have not won my 'soul' yet to claim, game over. Just like I cannot assume without question and reasoning.

As Trent Reznor (Nine Inch Nails) quotes

There are just some things that don’t seem very fair in the world, like this f-ing hypocrisy of organized religion. I just don’t understand how people can blindly believe a bunch of the sh*t they’re fed, to believe it so that they don’t think too hard about other issues. ‘Be a good boy and you’ll go to heaven.’ If it works for you, fine, but it doesn’t work for me and that pisses me off because I kind of wish it did."

Saturday, December 19, 2009


I have this urge to go out and explore more things. But I don't know whats stopping me sometimes. I think it's just time. I feel as though I wanna accomplish everything at one time but I know that's not possible. Feeling pretty bored this week, by just staring at my Mac for hours, mindlessly clicking away links and being pretty unproductive.

I live a pretty boring life, honestly. But, it pays off to slack at the moment. Something tells me, that I gotta get my priorities straight. Have a go? Nah, I'll just slack.

Friday, December 11, 2009

Pull Harder...

Been working in Apple for 6 days so far. I found the job pretty fun and also tough in terms of maintaining my working performance. For this job; I must learn more, I must excel more and convince more customers to purchase a Mac. Hopefully, I'll stick with this job and fit in nicely. It's pretty tough for customers to buy a Mac in terms of the utility purpose and money issue that gets into their thoughts before considering to purchase a Mac.

One of the worst customers I've encountered were the 'time-wasting' customers who can only tell me what they want to buy from an Apple store and walk off after that, after much effort of convincing the customer to buy. I've had that experience, just yesterday. Business was slow for a few days, maybe that's why I tried my best to close a good deal for the day. But I've learned that customers like these can be cut off immediately and not bother about them.

Anyhow, I have to work hard in this job if I want my holiday trip to Singapore. But in the end, we all have our good days and bad days. But since I'm working for a Mac Reseller, it's time for me to push-push-push! Need to make that extra income. Time for me to believe in myself that I could do well in this field.. time to pull harder!

Trivium-Pull Harder On The Strings Of Your Martyr

Thursday, December 03, 2009

Dead feet and an awaken thought...

Yesterday, went around town to look for a job and it seems that Low Yat plaza is pretty busy this time around, because of Christmas being just around the corner. Went to Jln Imbi to check out for job vacancies..non available. Walked to Sungei Wang to see what my options were....non as well, all taken. It was funny, the last place I checked out was the first place that accepted me in. Now, I'm a part-timer in a computer store. How...different. While I'm supposed to be in the audio line or something. But I don't mind. I've always wanted to learn how to assemble computers.

I wish I took Software/Computer Engineering and understood computers under more depth. But being my mathematics so bad, I don't think it could happen. Life I think is not unfair but I think every individual is just unparallel. If not, everybody would be a suicide bomber or something. Like any parent would ask,"What do you wanna be when you grow up?". I once told my parents that I wanted to be a Mechanical Engineer, I was 6 back then. At one time, I wanted to be a comedian and wished to earn 10million US Dollars like Russell Peters.

At one time, I had an interest in cooking. I wanted to become a Chef. But after seeing myself being in the Hotel Management industry for a month. I started to not believe in extreme commitment towards that kind of career. Especially Genting Highlands. Being away from Family, Home and Self-Interest Esteem for long periods of time. Nevertheless, coming across 11 years of Primary/Secondary education, my view with the world changed after that. Bad Economy crisis is now present, I just wanna find a hole to get into and hope my future would be alright.

When I see some of my friends having a financial crisis, it's a scare for me. My folks won't live forever, no one is going to support me but myself at the end of the day. I never thought of a precise blueprint for my life on how it is going to turn out. I thought there was no point planning, because I felt that; time, people and situations affects those plans and then things take on different routes. One of my 'rejected' cousins failed his PMR and dropped out of Secondary school to work as a Mechanic in a workshop. The reason why I labelled 'Rejected' was because I don't consider myself having many close relatives. But I won't go into that.

To me, money is not the root of ALL evil in terms of misuse of money as the only reason. Because I think, it's a sin of not having enough money to be able to put food onto the table. So what is precise 'good' and 'bad'? It's a two way street, just like the Deontology theory. Everybody needs money to survive and live their lives and there are people use money to manipulate situations like bribery and such, which are bad qualities. Money talks eh?

For me, I try to maintain the money in my bank account so that I don't go broke. Whenever I finished my class, I always had a limited number of choices as to where to eat. The common 'Mamak' stall infront of college, or McDonald's beside college. And I never had time to make my own lunch because of rushing to classes. That's when I told myself that I needed a job under flexi-hours to support myself and not to depend on others. There's no such thing as an ∞ amount of money in a person's pocket.

I can never say for most of my life I lacked of freedom, but making use of what I have to make my life better. I do tend to think that 3/4 of my has been drifted away and never had brake pads to stop and think about what I should do to make things better. But I believe that everyone wants to work hard so that they won't starve. And yes, I used to be a hardcore 'wishful thinker'. I was alot more afraid of the 'reality' me than I do now. I used to have dreams where there was a scene that no one were bothered with me at all. With those misplaced thoughts, I guess I've attracted the wrong kind of people that could pierce me. But f*ck the world, whatever that could've been wrong would let me see later and maybe help me grow now. Results of my life, vary all the time. I guess it is the same with everyone.

After Mum's passing, it made me think that 'Death will not kill you, Death will come to you when life makes attempts to kill you, whichever way it can'. What do I mean by that? God was never there to save people's lives. He can't stop a bullet from being struck on a person's chest. Nor can he even stop a car accident. I've accepted the fact that, we have to learn how to take care of ourselves and our families, rather than rely on a 'man-made imaginary superman' that claims to be able to save people from harm. So what's your excuse when you've failed to save a life, God? ,"Everybody has to go someday"? Come on, just say that death can't be escaped and it'll keep chasing after you, man.

I don't need a 'How to move on in life for Dummies' guide book, because I would know what Mum would want me to be in life when she is not around. Because I would know her personally as my own mother. Don't even try and plant the word 'Divine' into my head people.

Saturday, November 28, 2009


Finally, I've started my semester break...Time to look for a job! Of course some of you enjoy sitting at home, watch TV on a fine lazy afternoon and would have thought,"Why do I even wanna get a job now? Couch potato life is so much better!". To me, time is money..time is money...TIME IS MONEY! Of course, in conjunction of getting a job, I never fail to apply for a job that I like. This time around, I'm planning to work for a month or so, to fund for my trip to Singapore, and probably call a few 'kakis' to come along with me.

I think it would be an ideal place to go for a holiday, and to try and get contacts there to get involved with my business in sales. I've taken part-time jobs for at least 3 times in my life since I was 16. 1st job, I was a sales assistant at a 2nd hand goods store. 2nd was a promoter at FOS (Factory Outlet Store). And in my last job, I was a Butler/Kitchen helper/Bartender/Bell Boy at Maxim's 5 star hotel suite in Genting Highlands. Those jobs benefited me alot because it gave me alot of experience in these fields. But I cannot wait to get into the Audio Engineering industry somewhere in the near future.

For now, I'm still surveying for a job and just to see what I could work as, this time. Well, getting a job is somehow good. I don't have to just wait and save up monthly allowances given by my dad. Instead, I could earn a decent salary each month and earn great independence. I was never the type who would ask my parents for things that are costly. Whenever I couldn't afford things that were expensive, I would always strive to look for a job and work for the money. I feel that it is most rewarding at times. Being able to receive that 'hard-earned' money at the end of the month is really uplifting. Highest achievement would be, to be able to go to a store and get something you've been wishing for. That, I call true happiness and satisfaction.

I remember my days in Genting in the past, where I had to sleep well in the afternoon because of my daily working shift which starts from 11pm and ends at 7am. I even had to subsidize my daily spendings because, alot of things were expensive over there. For a month, I've been surviving on Canteen food and cup noodles. It could be a pretty tough life there, if you worked at Genting for the first time. When my 2nd income was banked in, I immediately left my job as a Butler because I was sick of being away from home for too long. But as I looked back at my old job, I still remember the good times where, after work, I used to go to this place called 'Sportsbook club' to watch a live band that plays every night while actually eyeing at the hot waitresses who were working there.

There were some days where I've thought of adventuring into the old hostels around Genting because some people claimed it was haunted. Reason for that, was because I wanted to find out whether ghosts were real or not and also to test my beliefs of the supernatural. To be honest, I was too afraid to go alone. Okay, now this paragraph is beginning to sound like a 'Children's Book'. But yes, I was tempted to visit the place.

Whenever I was in my dorm, I would relax on the top of the double decker bed and listen to alot of Metal music. Keeps me calm and reliefs my stress from work. Some of my colleagues who stayed nearby in one of the rooms, have a thing for techno music. Every night, they would blast Techno music with the door open so that the music can be heard at the whole dorm area. Those were the good old days.

The best position in the job was being at the guest list counter at the lounge. Why? Because I had a 'thing' for a girl (just to clarify that I'm not gay! hahaha) who worked at the front desk of Maxim Suites. What was the benefit you might ask? Staring at her back. YES. It was the only thing that I usually do to make the time pass by very fast. And it works! After a month, I left my job because I grew tired of Genting. After receiving my last payment from there, I went on continuing to save my money and finally got the things that I've always wanted. And when I looked back, I said to myself,"Damn, I got these great things because I had to go through the hard way. But the experience was a bonus." And I've gotten this far...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

There is no you..there is ONLY me

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Finally, I'm done with my last recording submission, which is due tomorrow. And I'm taking great pride in this project. Why? I recorded an NIN (Nine Inch Nails) cover called 'Gave Up' with a special big thanks to Syafiq and Poh Hock for making this recording project possible. Now, I just need to write up my report on the recording and another for my 'Computer Systems' project.

Now, I would like to talk about politics. No, not the one that involves the political parties (PAS, BN, DAP, UNMO, MIC, MCA) but about politics amongst friends and people that we know. The whole 'Bitching-about-other people' kind of matter. I mean, it's not like it's NEVER existed before in our lives but I've gotten loads of those treatments recently and yet, at most times I do not wish to even know what bad shit people say about me. I have had to endure feedback from the rumor mill that certain people are spitefully “laughing” at me for performing on stage although I am a audio production student and not one of them; music majors! I do not understand why they're superiority complex (which is an oxymoron because it is an inferiority complex). They have been making all sorts of sarcastic remarks behind my back and sniggering amongst themselves in my presence like a bunch of pussies! No balls to tell things to my face. I am not as good as them musically per se, but I am better musically as a audio student than they will ever be as music majors. They probably suspect their current music ability is due only to years and years of forced practice and formal instruction. Without that I wonder how they will do as performers? You people know who you are.

As a guest performer on some Fridays, I have the freedom and the guts to go solo. More importantly I do my own thing and enjoy myself out there. The music majors who perform on the day are under pressure for performance grades and some probably hate my guts for the pressure they are under. Jealousy is a very negative emotion. Screw you guys…you people know who you are.

If you're so caught up on judging me, I am assured to think that you're not happy with your own life. I will not take home negative energy from negative assholes with their own constipated lives. I mean, it's okay to draw a conclusion about a person’s musical performance. but to go on and on about it even though that person has done you no wrong is spiteful and malicious. In the end, wouldn't it make you nothing but a sad sadistic bastard? Go conquer your own demons and leave me out of your sordid existence! You people know who you are!

You people know who you are! Your snide remarks about my performances are never about my performances. You people are so scared on how the lecturers would judge upon your performances, you will never make the grade as musicians as music majors. All your years may go down the shithole! As for me, I am comfortable in my own skin and happy just doing what I do…like jamming with former members of the Blues Gang last week!


Monday, November 09, 2009

Closure (A revisited thought)

I've always been a irreligious person. An apathetic individual when I was a kid who had no knowledge as to what 'God' was in the mainstream religions, till I finally heard of this 'Jesus', 'Buddha' and etc that they speak of, when I was abit older. A cynical person I am about life, I know that I only live once on Earth. I do not worry about where I am gonna be after I've passed on someday, but I would just wait and see where I go. In my family line, alot of them were non-believers, especially my Grandpa from my dad's side who was an assured Atheist himself. My parents never encouraged me to be in a religion or to be a non-believer. All of this came upon myself about how I wanna live my life.

Without making any immediate assumptions, I went to an 'Assembly Of God' Church called 'Glad Tidings', located in PJ a few months back to feed my brain with knowledge about Christianity. A college friend of mine introduced me to the Church and it's people. I have to say, the place was pretty nice. A good place to settle down and relax and unwind your mind. That's how good the aura of the Church was. I came for their services for a few times to learn about what they believe and what they've been taught about life and the life-after.

This was a great opportunity to meet and mix with commonly good people in the church, and to learn about Christianity. Of all the times when people there prayed for me and tried to convince me that Christianity was the answer, I started to stray away from Sunday services. How? It was during the time when the pastor started preaching to this,"God created you and gave you a freewill life, but you must abide by these rules that he has set". Something like that. It got me questioning,"If God created us and gave us a freewill life. Why do we need to abide by his rules? That's not even freedom. What would be my will and purpose in life then?" It's like trying to maintain a relationship with your landlord, by having to pay your rent every month so that you can enjoy your rented place. And to also make your landlord happy, because he now has money.

Going to Church is like going for a Rock concert. People go to Church to find deeper meaning as to what God is, just like how people go to concerts in search of good music. The vibe of people getting absorbed into getting blessed in a big group, is like an amplification of 4 good 100 watt powered guitar cabinet amplifiers, blasting Rock music helping people to enjoy the music. If you don't believe in God, then stop. Find another path. It's like if you don't believe in the music, stop listening to it, find something else. Do I have a choice? Yes, I have the will to choose.

It was then, I stopped going to Church and only attended the cell meetings that happen every Friday. Knowing myself as a very sociable lad, I only went for cell meetings to mix around with different people and to widen my circle of friends. Till it came a time, when I made a short speech for them to know what I thought about their faith and such. I told my Christian friends who were half stoic, that I was grateful that they've welcome me to their faith and also told them I enjoyed being around them because of how well they treated me. But I came down with a 'Closure' as to what I think, when they asked me whether I would accept Christ as my saviour.

I ended it like this,"I do not know whether this would be the right path for me, but I hope I could still participate with you guys, on your social activities. My life on Earth is my last and I wouldn't want to make any wrong decisions along the way. I am still finding my own ground of beliefs. I may not know what God is, but I think I know what God isn't." I said those things because I felt that I needed to make a stand instead of just following what they say. I felt that I had the right to question. Answers don't come when questions are not asked. So, what is wrong? Questioning or making assumptions about religion? Think that for yourself.

I live by these principles:
-Don't kill

-Don't steal

-Be good people

-Live a good life

I still go for cell meetings. Reason being that I like being around friends, instead of professing to the faith but learn about it. One day, in Moral lecturer was teaching about the benefits of Religion. On how it brings purpose into our lives. She said that Religion is something that teaches us to be good people and to help bring people together.But to me, each religion has different kinds of teachings of conditions. How is that going to bring people together when they have certain contradictions that the religion has taught them, and yet affects society of different backgrounds? Only way, is to respect each others religion and appreciate the good things a person has done for you, rather than to judge based on stereotyping!

I believe death will deliver all answers that we've been wanting to know when we were still living. Everyone has the right to believe or disbelieve whatever they want. If either of them
serves a purpose in your life, go ahead! But I've chosen my path.

Nine Inch Nails-Terrible Lie

Entrance of the conflagration...

Well, today went pretty well. Finally sold my Vox VT30 amp to some buyer yesterday and I got myself a new amp today =) An Ibanez TBX 30. It's so awesome! The Gain of this amp was so immense, it can blow my brains out of the window! Seriously, compared to the old amp, the Vox didn't have a large amount of gain that I wanted (Even though it was a Valvestate amp). I'll never settle for anything less than 30 watts of power in an amp, that's one thing about me. Unless if it was a 5watt Mesa Boogie, then it's a different story.

Got a bargained price for the stuff I bought from Bentley Music. A DI box and an Amp for a good price indeed. Of course, I won't buy the DI box for no reason, it was supposed to make my guitar recordings give out pretty clean signals and hopefully to preserve and enhance great tone =)
Finally, Bentley has brought in Ibanez 'Made In Japan' RG series(s) into their shop. It was about time they brought in the goodies, but their price is something that I still do not agree. But I don't care much though, being a 'Drop Tuning' nut such as myself, I'm done with Floyd Rose guitars and I wouldn't settle any less for fixed bridge guitars.

I played an Ibanez MIJ RG (RG450 I think) off the rack to test out the amp that I've purchased this afternoon. Surprisingly, it's a pretty well built guitar if you asked me. But I'm a proud owner of my own RG, so to me...most of them don't even come close in terms of sound and feel. The 'J Craft Team' editions are one of the 2nd best batches in making Ibanez guitars from Japan, which I was deeply impressed. Nice neck, great body resonance and awesome fingerboard. For the stock pickups? They sound just fine! I might just wait for one of the Mahogany body RG's to be brought over , hopefully soon *Fingers crossed*

I'll be waiting....

Here is, 'Entrance Of The Conflagration' by Trivium =)

Sunday, November 01, 2009

You're a legend!

On that one Friday morning, I woke up and started thinking about how I'm going to do my vocal recording project which was supposed to be my last chance on that day itself. Because next week's schedule would be hectic. I was still in my T-shirt and jeans as I didn't have any pajamas. (Yes, I stayed over without any extra clothes to change into).

My friends, Glen, Ervin and myself were up late at night in KLCC, watching 2 movies which both were 'Inglorious Bustards' and 'Jennifer's Body' from 9pm-2am. Both movies were not so bad, except that 'Inglorious Bustards' had boring- long-winded dialogue sessions. It was 2am after finished both movies. We took a cab back to Ervin's hostel and I slept over that night.

Woke up the next day, and went back home straight away to take a nice hot bath. After that, went back to college to catch Friday Performance. The performers that day were decent. 6pm, I rushed into the studio and quickly set up. Rowen was recording vocals for my vocal project that day, after his Friday performance. At the end, we did almost everything fine under 1 take with the Verses, bridges and choruses. Rowen, you're a legend!

Came back home at 8pm, and I started mixing carefully that night. Though it went on for a couple of days before my submission. So, is perceiving the only way on getting things done. Or do things sometimes just fall into place like 'Tetris'?

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Poetic genius

One thing great about Heavy Metal music is that, not only can this very genre come up with great riffs and solos that are progressive ever since the early 80's, but also with alot of very well written lyrics. For those, who can appreciate the writings about anger, intolerance, hope, strength and such common writing styles of Heavy Metal. Which means, the tunes of this genere doesn't always have to be heavy, as long as the messages in the song itself can hit your inner gut..

But one of the songs that I favour the most in terms of lyric material, is the song 'Hurt' by Nine Inch Nails. Though the song is very Ballad like, the lyrics in the song was well written by frontman, Trent Reznor himself. The song is about Trent, going through hard times after the passing of his friend a long time ago. It doesn't have a heavy and bashing tune to it, but the lyrics are heavy in a way. Trent is a poetic genius in song writing.

Nine Inch Nails-Hurt

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Thursday, October 15, 2009

The pain and relief..

Sometimes, I think that life is just too short to be even complaining and whining about unnecessary things. Yes, I've had Trials & Tribulations in my life (and still do). My goals may be too foggy to see it any clearer, but I guess being able to do with a passion does lead to some place else better. As for the following:

-No, I may not be as good a guitarist as I should be by now
-No, I may not have a very sharp ear like a professional sound engineer yet
-No, I may not be a good flirt unlike many people that I know of
-And no, I don't think I would go well with large boots (So random)

But why is it, that I continue mixing, playing guitar and so on? Was it to prove to anybody that I could be greater than them someday? NO! Its because I love doing those things. People always try to find a reason as to why they continue to do the things that made them feel discouraged earlier. But here's the answer,"Passion". I do not give a care in the world as to when my problems strike. Because, the problems come from all angles (but only at different times). There isn't a life without problems.

I think that people complain about their problems because they think that there would be a day where there are no problems. They're DEAD WRONG! A friend of mine,Rowen said to me,"I don't know why people complain about assignments and such since it's a course that they're interested in.".

True, some (Or most) desires don't come too easily. Like losing weight.
You hate the fact that you're overweight, but gotta work on losing weight, by exercising. Yes, it is tiring and pressuring. But it'll help you get what you want at the end, 'Losing weight'.

Yes, I've failed many times in my life in many things that I wanted to achieve. But the decay left me with a 'lesson' at the end to help me reflect on what mistakes were done and I TRY to assure myself that I wouldn't do it again. Everybody has pressure, because everything we do..pressure needs to be applied. (Unless you have telekinetic abilities).

Everytime, I hear the word 'Emo' by some of my friends. Oh, I wish they could stop misusing that word. To me, it's not a form of excuse about their 'self-pity' acquisition. I think it's a form of self-preservation bullcrap that they put up with to get people's attention most of the time.

Sunday, October 11, 2009


I think Charvel Custom Shop model guitars look and perform better than Fender Custom Shop guitars (No offence to Fender fans). This is the 'yummy'!

Charvel Custom Shop San Dimas guitars!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Get me out of the mass!

Conventional is never in my books at most of the times. I just cannot accept the general Pop culture around these days in this modern era. There are loads of common things that a lot of people follow today that I do not agree;


No, I do not support the gay community or the Metro-sexual bullshit that a lot of people can solemnly accept and lightly discuss about these days. And you thought having the PRMC society to ban Heavy Metal in the 70's was bad? Then start thinking about THIS (Gay culture)! When most parents thought that Heavy Metal was bad for their kids. Think about most parents on Earth, who could accept the Gay status approach and thinking that it's fine. What if one fine day, your son gets influenced by these bunch of 'Homos' and comes back to tell you,"Mom...Dad, I think being Gay is THE path in my life".

Yes, it can be very heart breaking to a lot of parents. Gays are now accepted by the media (some of them are TV hosts. For example? Programmes like 'Project Runway', 'Akademi Fantasia' (I think Aznil is a fag), 'America's Top Model'. Then what are the attributes of Man and Woman?! Nothing! Scrapped and thrown into the dustbin like a flick of a switch. BUT, I do wonder..whether it's the mainstream media who gives us this kind of feed of information without a proper survey on this subject, whether society agrees or disagrees on this 'Gay' matter. The main reasons why I'm against Gay-ism are these few points below;

1. They could contract Sexual Transmitted Diseases
2. I think it's un-natural and discriminates both manhood and womanhood
3. I understand that some homosexuals are born with it, but majority of them are under
influenced by the affected.
4. "Be a Man!", Russel Peters

Mainstream Music

Sometimes, I wonder
..whether I have a bad taste of music or the large number of people who dig Mainstream Music do. I somehow think, a lot of popular artists these days are just 1 hit wonders. General Pop Music these days, with their cheesy lyrics and simple easy-to-listen-to melodies just can't be as good as music from the old days. If I were to compare between Fal Out Boy and Megadeth, in the end...Megadeth is hands down.

Megadeth's music is more technical, melodic and full of energy. You just can't deny Dave Mustaine for coming up with such good lyrics and guitar solos along with Chris Broderick these days. Sometimes I do wonder how Pete Wentz could get his own Signature bass from Squier Fender when he can't really play bass that well, but only knows how to stare infront of the mirror and putting on eye shadow before playing a show with Fall Out Boy. Fall Out Boy generally loves writing songs emphasizing the greatness of celebrity and fame. Why not write about things that relate to people's issues or problems for once? I wonder if one has lost the true meaning of music. This is why I think Metal bands are more liberal and a lot of them can play music better. Scr*w your MTV or your Channel V today.


Finally, Lostprophets are back with their new single and upcoming album after 3 long awaited years for the new record to be released! They've once again, innovated their music with hard hitting Indie Rock blending with some Nu-Metal feel to it. It could be Lee Gaze, playing that Fender Telecaster with that sort of Drop D 'Overdriven Twang'. Their written material has gotten better than before. Awesome vocals from Ian Watkins, funky bass lines from Stuart Richardson, awesome keyboard/synth playing from Jamie Oliver, monster lead guitar playing of Lee Gaze and chugging rhythm guitar from Mike Lewis. But of course, the drummer is not the same without Ilan Rubin as he has gone to perform with Nine Inch Nails as their official drummer. Lostprophets' current drummer is Luke Johnson.

Well, it was worth the wait...their new single is AWESOME!

Lostprophets-It's not the end of the world

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Mind on the mixing board...

Everytime I start to record something, there's always expected a mix for every 'Rough Take'. What I mean is, mixing the recorded track, that we mean 'Raw Mix'. Aside from my audio terms, mixing to me needs a lot of patience, especially when it comes to re-recording the same guitar track till it becomes perfect.

Yes, being a perfectionist doesn't give you a good reputation with people, generally. But it is a habit for sound engineers. It is not an onboard ego that we have naturally . And again, being a perfectionist in that field needs patience. You just wanna get the sound right, making sure the levels are well balanced so that they don't reach at peak levels. Compression (Oh I hate this part) makes your mix sound tighter and to touch up the tracks and also to make sure not to lose alot of information of the track.

With many considerations, comes many methods to guess out yourself to innovate practically after what you've read in recording magazines. But yeah, I finally realized that recording, mixing and mastering are long procedures to create a single/album. But I think it depends on the amount of experience that the producer/engineer has to get the job done as soon as possible. Sometimes it makes me wonder, how producers like Rick Rubin, Bruce Swedien or Trent Reznor make the cut on producing damn good albums.

Thursday, September 17, 2009


When I see something that separates myself
I go into abyss
When I bleed my eyes out
I see all truth in consequences
Save your prayers
Be careful of what you say
Because soon you'll be in decay
Keep bringing in the bad and throwing out the good
I hope to see you in hell soon
I wasn't meant to go down that road (of fantasy), because of you...
You LIAR in the book!

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Something I can never have...

When I say, wear your earplugs whenever you're attending rock concerts. I mean it, my fellow readers...wear them. I remember going to watch Nine Inch Nails in Singapore recently and came back to KL with ringing ears for more than a WEEK! I stood infront of the speaker at a near distance and exposed myself to too much Bass for 2 hours during the concert. I thought I was suspected of Tinnitus but it turned out to be negative, when the ringing started to fade till non.

It IS depressive when you have tinnitus, some tinnitus patients committed suicide because they couldn't take the ringing any more. There is no definite cure for this symptom. This Tinnitus is not a joke. Once you have it, it sticks with you for LIFE! If you're a Sound Engineer or Musician, don't let this 'Monster' get to you, it's a heartache. Never expose yourself to too much noise/up to a level of 120 dB (causes pain)


From Wikipedia:

Tinnitus (pronounced /tɪˈnaɪtəs/ or /ˈtɪnɪtəs/,[1] from the Latin word tinnītus meaning "ringing"[2]) is the perception of sound within the human ear in the absence of corresponding external sound.

Tinnitus is not a disease but a symptom resulting from a range of underlying causes that can include ear infections, foreign objects or wax in the ear, nose allergies that prevent (or induce) fluid drain and cause wax build-up, and injury from loud noises. Tinnitus can also be caused by hearing impairment and as a side-effect of some medications. Some cases of tinnitus are medically unexplained.[3][not in citation given]

Don't let Tinnitus get to YOU!

Here's Nine Inch Nails' 'Something I can never have'. It's a song about Trent Reznor's Tinnitus and Drug problem.

KFC (Killer F*** Chicken)

I used to be a BIG fan of KFC, until it came a time when their Chickens started to suck (their seasoning are also starting to). I remember during the earlier days, whenever I passed by a KFC outlet..the aroma draws me in to treat myself a 'dinner plate set'. The aroma of their seasoning is a mirage, why? Because the chicken doesn't taste as good as their seasoning. This spoils my mood everytime I eat KFC. This happens to most KFC outlets.

Most of the time, the chicken is uncooked! Most of the time, their chicken could be the left over from 2-3 days back! This is reality people! KFC loves your money and doesn't repay you with customer satisfaction! I'd go with 'Popeye's Chicken' anytime! If Colonel Sanders rose from the dead, he'd know how to Manage KFC and bring back the 'Finger Lickin' Good-ness'!!

But for now, just stay away from KFC till they get better, people!

Chicken: "Bring back the good stuff!"

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Scream your heart out!

Finally, I got my 1 week break from college and also the demanding times in the recording studio. I can just sit back and relax, while I think of plans as to where I wanna go around town or travel to, like Penang or Genting Highlands for a few days. Yesterday, I managed to perform for the first time in my 2nd semester in college. I played 'Rooftops' by LostProphets and dedicated it to Sam (Unfortunately, she was at the washroom when I dedicated the song to her. HAHAHHA!!!). When I was on stage, I was slightly having one of those 'stage fright' moments, along with the stage lights blinding me. I told myself that I should do my best and not mess up like my last performance during my first semester.

Half way through of performing 'Rooftops', Simon and some of my other friends, quickly came up on stage and started playing along on piano, keyboard and a few hits on the drum overheads, snares and floor toms. Misagh also joined in the fun. It was really fun and really unexpected. After the first song, the guys wanted an encore. So, I performed 'Head Like A Hole' by Nine Inch Nails. Overall, I was happy with my performance and had the 'high' sensation through out my whole body.

Maybe, these were one of the reasons why I love performing. It makes me really happy at the end of the day, and erases my troubles and issues that I currently face. When the adrenaline pumps in, the energy is great. I thank the guys for supporting me (even those on stage) and also Mr Vinay and the sound crew who did an amazing job on my sound check :)

I basically performed to have fun...


Nine Inch Nails-Head Like A Hole

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

The sound of tone and the smell of GAS...

I used to think that, to be able to get the right guitar gotta get the right settings from the amp and effect pedals from your pedal board. That, I'll agree to it by 40%. One would always want to emphasize on 'tone-tone-tone'. But the exposure has thought me that those things aren't everything. Yes, they're an enhancement to help look for your signature guitar tone. Although, ever since I swapped my old guitar pickups to Dimarzio pickups..they gave me the capabilities of being able to get a high output and achieve an 'attack' more than up to triple notes. Which was great!

Ah...I crave for the Marshall that this guy has..(JJ! Focus on playing! NO MORE GEAR for now!)

Ah...look at all the pedals...they're impatiently waiting for me to grab them and play them (Practice first! No more ! NO MORE!)

But after watching Joe Satriani playing the guitar on 'Youtube', I realized that the fingers apply 60% to the tone and playability. Why? Because techniques are the mother of all playing. Although, I always hear Mr Frank during Friday Performances saying, "The guitar needs the 'tone' for the song.". He emphasizes a lot on tone, which I agree. But, as far as I know...your feelings and (if) seasoned playing techniques do affect the way the tone sounds. I dunno, if it's true or not..but the way I see Satch (Joe Satriani) playing the guitar, he puts his guitar wisdom and feelings to his playing (and of course a little bit of reverb lah..who doesn't know Satch), he gets to fulfill the 'tone' he wanted to achieve, and we get inspired by that.

Would it also mean that, fingers come first then only fancy gear for enhancement? It's in the end, subjective and debatable . I can't tell you that,"Digital multi-effects are bad, Analog effect pedals only create the 'real' tone". Though, I swear by Analog pedals, I can't force a person to go for what I think is best. Even Line 6 creates digital multi-fx pedal boards that are amazing to my ears now. It's all within YOU!

Go for what you like...follow your own guitar heroes and build your own style and techniques. There's no harm in going for guitar classes to improve on playing. Even I admit, I need to go for classes soon to enhance my playing and get more ideas. Learn from people who are willing to teach you, no matter what standard of playing you're at, not to look for those who look down on your playing and think they can teach you with their much bragging rights. As Andy Timmons once said,"I don't feel like a professional guitarist, but I feel that I'm still learning. In fact, we're all beginners. We're all still learning". And play guitar for the reason that you enjoy and love playing. Here is Joe Satriani's 'Crying'. Enjoy!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

The nourishing 'Anti-Headache' drink

I just came up with a new drink that I think is really healthy. And I think, this drink would be very filling. This drink would help keep you going through out the day.

I call it 'The Anti-Headache' drink. Why? Because I remember making and drinking this and my headache disappeared after a while. HAHAHAHA!!!

And here is the recipe;

1 egg
3 tablespoons of milk powder
1 tablespoon of Honey

Ways of making it;

-Pour in 3 tablespoons of milk powder
-Crack the egg in
-Pour in 1 tablespoon of Honey
-Pour hot water and stir well..

There you go! Your own 'Anti-headache' drink! ENJOY!

Saturday, August 29, 2009

A few things being thought out...

Everyone most likely knows, that the world is a jungle by itself. You may have bosses who are like Gila Monsters; watching out for a major mistake from you, so that they can cut your pay or demote you. OR, you may have fellow colleagues; who work their asses off like Donkeys and won’t likely have a backbone to think on their feet. Have they no life? Can’t blame them, the world is like that if they want it to be. Me being a college student myself, it’s always an issue that I have to always be proactive in like EVERYTHING. Be it; submission, assessments, weekly tasks, and my quest on being a good performer which is still vague in my own vision. Thus, having said that, I honestly feel pissed myself in terms of ‘time’. Time, to make up for the things I’ve missed. Time, to be able to grasp on things sooner than later. Time, to get things straight in my life before I’m told to. Most of my classmates would always want to try and kill each other to try and perform to be the best than the rest. For me personally, I just wanna get my freaking qualification paper and get into the outside world for good.

I do wonder myself, whether my opinion can be relative to others. But I think that is not what’s important, as long as I know what is right and knowing what I want..I’ll fight for it. If a person accepts me for who I am, a friendship like that should always be kept. But I think the main importance of a ‘Relationship’ is Trust. Without ‘Trust’ in life, I don’t think a lot of people would get along with each other, or maybe..EVERYONE! Realizing the fact that friendship does not measure by the number of favours you owe to a friend (or vice versa), but measured by how much you can share with a friend. This could be the reason why I sometimes encounter reliability issues with some of my so-called friends. But anyhow, we just can’t take things for granted. That’s it.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Ember to inferno...

When it comes to true young talent, I would consider Matt Heafy from Trivium to be one. Forget about the over-rated Miley Cyrus or the Jonas Brothers for that matter. Matt Heafy is probably one of the most underrated Child Prodigies of our time in Modern Rock. He started playing in Trivium at the age of 17 and then released their debut album 'Ember to inferno'. His guitar skills and raging vocals brought a huge contribution as to what the band wanted to achieve in their music.

In 2004, the band released their 2nd album, 'Ascendancy'. This album was a bit different than their debut, because Matt Heafy started singing a little bit and by most of the time, screaming. But indeed, the single in the album 'Like Light To The Flies' is a definite hit song in my books. With melodic solos, charismatic vocals and monstrous screams. He's proven himself as worthy as James Hetfield, in terms of age in success. James was 18 when Metallica became successful with their debut album 'Kill'Em All'. Matt had 2 successful albums under his belt when he was 17/18. As far as guitar skills go, Matt swears by the 'Rock Discipline' DVD, conducted and directed by John Petrucci, as a source for warming up and practicing modes, scales and etc. To me, his speed and accuracy on hitting notes is very consistent but he had problems with speed, meaning in some songs during Live, he goes a little bit too fast.

At 19, he also was chosen to produce a few songs for 'RoadRunner United'. He managed to get a chance to work with King Diamond, and the guys from Killswitch Engage, Il Nino, Assesino and etc. He was featured as lead vocalist on one of the songs in the album called 'The End'.

In 2006, came the album 'The Crusade'. A lot of critics reviewed this album in a really bad way. Saying that the band was trying to portray Metallica's style of music. Claiming that Matt was trying to sound like James Hetfield on vocals and the guitar and drum patterns were similar to Metallica. But to me, this was a stepping stone for the band to experimenting other genres in the music career. Namely, 'Thrash Metal'.

In 2008, the band released their fourth album 'Shogun'. As for this, I'll let wikipedia do the talking.

"Shogun (将軍 Shōgun) is the fourth studio album by American metal band Trivium. The album was released worldwide on various dates between September 23 and October 1, 2008 through Roadrunner Records. Work on the album is noted to have begun with producer Nick Raskulinecz in October 2007,[4] with the band stating that they chose not to work with Jason Suecof again due to the fact that they wanted to explore new ideas.[5] One song from the album, "Into the Mouth of Hell We March", was featured on the soundtrack for the 2008 video game Madden NFL 09."

"Shogun features the return of Matt Heafy's screaming vocals, also the band's first album produced by Nick Raskulinecz, in a interview for, Heafy described the album's musical direction as a combination of various aspects including: "the past, present, and future of Trivium, all on one CD" and that is the "next evolutionary step".[11] When asked about the change in his singing-style, he said: "It’s the kind of thing that happened naturally."[11]

The group didn't want to make an album where all songs had the same singing style, like in The Crusade, and decided to just let their music flow naturally and unbiased. Unlike The Crusade which had some songs focusing on famous and controversial murders/crimes, this album has a few songs that deal with ancient Japanese/Greek Mythology. The songs usually have hidden meanings which are to be interpreted by the listener. Themes based on the stories of Prometheus's punishment, Sea monsters Scylla and Charybdis, Kronos eating his children in "He Who Spawned The Furies," and the nymph Callisto are present.", Wikipedia

Here are two of my favourite Trivium tracks that I've been listening to lately..enjoy!

Ember to Inferno

Throes of Perdition

Sunday, August 23, 2009


*I absolutely have no idea what to blog about, but I'll give in some input about...I dunno, we'll see how this goes..

Last Friday, I was supposed to perform as Guest Performer for Friday performance in College. But I didn't at last, because I didn't confirm my performance with Mr. Frank. Which gave me a 'slap' in the face of realization.

Because, I didn't know Guest Performers were also required to seek a Lecturer's permission, this thing never seem to have happened before, during my last performance. But oh well, Mr. Frank postponed my performance to next Friday, and let's see how that goes. I showed him the lyrics of the song that I was going to cover. Mr Frank told me out of worry,"Oh, does this have screaming? We don't want to have any songs that have political or protest messages in it. We'll get into trouble for that." Now, that sort of stunned me. I do not know who made a complaint/remark to such acts like;Screaming, jumping around and etc in my college. But whoever you are, you certainly have no clue what music is and guess upon what music is not. Your remark could even be the reason why one of our Political parties made an attempt to banning Avril Lavigne from coming because of her so-called sexy attire or that sort of rubbish.

Hate to break it to you, but there is no such thing as 'Traditional Malaysian Music'. With much further citing, you'll realize that we have innovated only genres like 'Pop yeh yeh' and 'Dikir barat' (which some claimed it originated from Thailand) and the rest were all takers and claimed that it was our music. For further info, please read this. At least I'm giving options and not wanting to show as if I'm a 'know-it-all'.

I'm writing this for the reason that I love music and I think music shouldn't be contradicted in any way. If anybody wishes to attempt a repeated history of the PRMC era in the US, be my guest. You're gonna make a lot of people unhappy. Here's a little bit of history. Educate yourselves.

*Money has been an issue with my trading business these days, but I'm not financially down (independently), that's a good thing. You bet, dodgy customers calling me up and this particular one, called me one fine day and asked;

Buyer: Hey dude, I saw your post in the forum and I'm interested in your
Stratocaster guitar. How much are you selling?

Me: I'm selling for RMxxx. I modified the pickups and everything. You can test it
out once you're free.

Buyer: Ok bro. I'll call you. I wanna try it so badly!

And of course, the guy didn't call me for more than a week, and that wouldn't be the least of my expectations. I know, times are bad regarding the global economic crisis and all that, but do understand Mr. Buyer, that I'm trying to live a purposeful life and trying to make full use of it. But oh well, people are people..can't really change them for who they are right?

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

A night to see the god father of Industrial Metal in the Lion City

Last night, would be one of the most memorable nights of my life.I finally got to catch Nine Inch Nails Live In Singapore! The concert was worth a catch. Their performance was never better if you ask me. I met some really cool NIN fans in the pit before the show. The stage set up was pretty impressive. The band kinda had brought almost all of their gear that they travel with on tour. 30 minutes before the show, I went to their merchandise booth and bought an NIN T-Shirt, pretty sweet stuff. There was also a booth where they were selling beers and all, but I decided not to drink that night because I didn't want to risk passing out and missing out on the whole rocking and headbanging at the concert. HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

Though I can seem to sight the kind of amps they were using. But the guitars and basses were awesome. Robin Finck had 5 Gibson Les Pauls on the guitar stands and a few Fender guitars. Of course, Trent Reznor only used his black Gibson Les Paul since the 'with teeth' days and a Semi Hollow body Gibson model. Ilan Rubin (ex-drummer of Lostprophets) was also there as current member of Nine Inch Nails. But in my opinion, nothing's the same when the band had Josh Freese as the drummer, but Ilan did a pretty good job on stage, that night. The crowd response was pretty good in terms of their energy and cheer for the band. Best part is, they played alot of the old songs which by most of it, turned out to be my favourites..including, 'Wish', 'March Of The Pigs', 'Head Like A Hole' and many more. Their last song was 'Hurt' and it was played as an encore song.

No doubt, I would dare say that Metal/Industrial/Rock concerts always appear to have more hot girl than Boyband concerts. Ain't the Heavy Metal scene sweet or what? I took a lot of photos that night. Will post them up on my next post.

Their showmanship and timing of their performance was unbelieveable. It feels like a dream for me to watch Nine Inch Nails Live for the first time, even though I've started becoming a fan of them last year. In terms of audience satisfaction for myself, I would say it's probably the 'Concert Of The Year' . After the show, I met up with a fan from the crowd who was wearing Trent Reznor's shirt (The shirt that he wore at the beginning of the show and took it off and threw it to the crowd). I asked her (the fan),"May I rub some of Trent's sweaty shirt onto my Adidas jersey?". She allowed me to, and that was the souvenier of the day, for me at least. :). Right now, my Black Adidas jersey is being hung on my clothes hanger, unwashed. And I shall get a glass casing and keep the shirt for display. And that ended the day, and I finally went back home to Malaysia and missed 2 lectures in college. But it was worth it, for an awesome concert.

Here's 'Heresy (Live In Singapore)'

Head Like A Hole (Live In Singapore)

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

GAS-sy rant and raves!

Been really caught up with work lately, especially being stuck in the recording studio from morning till night for the past week doing my recording assignment. But it's not so bad so far, at least I get to take the time to learn more about what I love doing..RECORDING! When I first saw the big 44 channel mixer in the studio, I was intimidated by it because of the size and I thought it was gonna be complicating. But it wasn't that bad. And NEVER again, am I gonna work with tape machines. They're just bad and frustrating to work with, thank goodness for digital technology.


Short for Gear Aquisition Syndrome.

Used by Guitar Geeks & musician gearheads when they are jonesing for a piece of equipment, usually rare or expensive, while posting in related user forums."

'Credits to Urban Dictionary'

And recently...I just bought 2 new guitar pickups for my Ibanez RG380F! Dimarzios were my primary choice because, it blends well with the body of the RG and I just love the output of Dimarzio pickups. I just got a D-Activator and Air Norton (The one Paul Gilbert uses) model. Finally, I could get rid of my Seymour Duncan Alnico 2 Pro pickups set that came with the guitar, and save the embarrassment. Don't get me wrong, the guitar came with those pickups and it was meant for a Les Paul type of guitar. And yes, many knowledgeable guitarists that I know of, thought I was stupid enough to put them in, but it was from the Boss of the shop (where I bought my Ibanez from) who put those in.

Dimarzio Air Norton

Dimarzio D Activator

Now, with the D Activator...I get to drop tune as low as I like and this pickup holds on its own, in terms of output and tone. It acts as a high output passive pickup under an active circuit and serves it's low ends pretty well. For those who don't know the difference between active and passive.

Well, Passive pickups are magnetic powered while Actives require 9 volt batteries. The reason why I chose the Air Norton for the neck position was because of it's capabilities to be a bit mellow but the attack is sweet as far as I'm concerned. And the output is sweet. Any shredder would choose Dimarzios, EMGs or the-not-so recent Seymour Duncan Blackouts.

My guitar right now is under service, I'm finally gonna block my Floyd Rose System for good. Until I try and get another Floyd Rose System guitar, I would make my current one be under fixed bridge system. I wouldn't mind not being able to do Dime Squeals or any other Whammy trick that is known in guitar domain, not necessary for me at least. least I get to do 'Dive down' whammy position on my Ibanez.

I wanna try and collect up to three electric guitars with each different tuning like; E standard, Drop C and Drop A. Thank goodness for the Stratocaster copy that I'm keeping as a spare/back up guitar, but I'm selling that off to buy another fixed bridge guitar, any takers? I'll be selling my pair of Seymour Duncan pickups and my SX Stratocaster (modded with Fender pickups). I'll give you guys a good package price if you buy all 3 items and you still get good price if you buy one of them as well. :D (Except for the Seymour Duncans, I'm selling them under 1 pair)

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Like Light To The Flies

Yesterday, I went and watch a protest rally, which was situated at the very few areas around Masjid Jamek and Hang Tuah. This link will explain what happened.

I dedicate this to the citizens of Malaysia. Hope you'll find greater meaning into this song..

Like Light To The Flies

Behold our beloved revels in tragedy (in tragedy)
Self-denying avarice for bloodshed
Behold hypocrite

Those who run will be burned X4

Devoutly wished for blinded eyes
This tragedy's like light to flies
This seems to suit you better bleeding out the eyes (bleeding out the eyes)
hope's left in chain suspension,
Holding onto lies to make the truth

Behold our beloved rebels in tragedy (in tragedy)
Self-denying avarice for bloodshed
Behold hypocrite

Those who run will be burned X4
Devoutly wished for blinded eyes
This tragedy's like light to flies
This seems to suit you better bleeding out the eyes (bleeding out the eyes)
hope's left in chain suspension,
Holding onto lies to make the truth

Devoutly wished for blinded eyes
This tragedy's like light to flies
This seems to suit you better bleeding out the eyes (bleeding out the eyes)
hope'sleft in chain suspension,
Holding onto lies to make the truth
This seems to suit you better bleeding out the eyes (bleeding out the eyes)
hope's left in chain suspension,
Holding onto lies to make the truth

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

The Synth And The Mixer Prodigy

I've started working in the studio at college in my 2nd semester and I've been trying to catch up as much as possible with my other subjects. Pouring in ideas for my next submission can be very indecisive in terms of the sections of a song that I'm editing. Whether it has enough room to fit in good beats. And whenever I get into that situation I would always wonder how Trent Reznor presents his work with a lot of detail till he makes up funny 'noises' in his music which can be appreciated by many, time to time.

Trent Reznor

Sound of noise in some of his songs is one thing in the creative process, but it's the details. It's like painting with many colours and making it look muddy if not done nicely. But there's a certain beauty within the 'messyness'. It's not what you're looking at, but how you're looking at it. Just like being a Layman with listening preference. One thing that I admire Reznor for is that, he is an icon in the music industry without a qualification. He was supposedly studying Computer Engineering and dropped out to make a career in music. He was in a few bands one after another, playing Electronica/Avant Garde music. It was then on, MIDI was present and was utilized well during the emergence of the 1980's.

After joining and dropping out of a few bands, he worked as a janitor and assistant engineer in a recording studio. Due to few months of hard work, he asked the owner of the studio, a permission for Reznor to record his own material. It was then, Nine Inch Nails was coming into form before Trent Reznor could find members to complete the band. He played, arranged and recorded all instruments except the drums by himself. He then sent demos to a radio station and was offered to sign with TVT records and started work and released the Nine Inch Nails' debut album 'Pretty Hate Machine' in 1989.

To make the story short, after several successes with the band and a Grammy Award for the song 'Wish', he then was a producer for Marylin Manson and had helped Manson a breakthrough into the music scene. His work is well recognized and admired by other great producers such as Timbaland and Rick Rubin. He is titled 'The Godfather of Industrial Metal'. How does this both great artist and producer influence me so much? His style of music and mixing techniques. The multi tracking of heavy uses of synthesizers, guitars, fuzz effects and intense drum beats that makes his music very unique beyond the memorable influential root of the 'Blues'.

Can't wait to catch Nine Inch Nails Live in Singapore on the 10th of August...

Nine Inch Nails-Wish

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Groove or Die

Tonight was indeed awesome, because I attended Andy Timmons' guitar clinic session at Bentley Music. For those who don't know Andy Timmons can click on this link .

Andy was on a Asian guitar clinic tour and he came to KL to conduct a session. I came for the clinic alongside with my college mates and I enjoyed it! Watching him play and explaining his techniques is like watching God in person but with a guitar of course XD. The way he demonstrated his guitar playing qualifies a valid reason why he is like one of the greats like Joe Satriani, Paul Gilbert and John Petrucci.

His legato and alternate picking is very consistent on almost every song. But, the one thing I liked about his show, was that; He knows how to blend chord riffs and lead phrases in between pretty well. He also has proven that finger nails are an important essential of getting a certain 'tone' and enhances playing of the guitar. But I guess it's useful for chicken picking or hybrid picking.

Before the show, I was staring at his guitar rig with envy (Well, what kind of aspiring guitarist doesn't, right?). He has got a Mesa Boogie Lone Star (I've forgotten the other Mesa Boogie amp), his Ibanez AT-100 CL SB and a collection of pedals. I wonder if his maple guitar neck feels as good as an American Fender neck. I won't mind getting the neck for a future guitar project.

The stage with his gear. I really have an eye candy for his Ibanez AT-100 CL SB and his Mesa Boogie amp.

Andy signing autograph for fans

Andy, signing my Ibanez guitar

Waiting in line for Andy's autograph

Me and Andy Timmons

Here's Andy Timmons' 'Groove or Die'. Enjoy!

Sunday, July 12, 2009


People say that 'Time will heal'. When it comes to losing a loved one, it's pretty hard to say. Some say that it takes a while to reconcile the matter, some say that nothing will ever be the same (in drab ways). Ever since Mummy's passing, I knew the path in my life would change along with the rest of the family. Made me develop a conscience of being afraid of losing another immediate family member. Probably that's what made me care about my priorities even more. I finally realized that Life wasn't considered 'Black and White' but just Grey.

I was glad in ways that I never took things for granted and somehow knew that it's best to cherish something/someone important before they go. Therefore, regret is the worst thing to live with. I used to remember the times when I used to have a 1 to 1 talks with my Mum (even she had sessions with my Sister) alot within the 2 months before her passing, I know that I didn't manifest for the worst but I knew a possibility that she wouldn't make it any longer. That concern triggered the intention of being with her even more. During her passing, I knew myself that I didn't have the right to break down and cry because I needed to feel strong for my Father and Sister. The vivid memory of the 3 minutes of moaning and crying outside the hospital made myself feel like I was 'Dead', I felt that Mum wanted all of us to be the stronghold of each other.

As time went by especially in these 2 years, it gets tougher but at the same time, it's as if the immunity grew, but the remaining scars are still there. I don't think I need religion to teach me that we all have to go someday because it's already an existing fact. I guess I was born to live life and not born to die after life itself. What mum would want is for the family to be good people and live a good life. This isn't an Anniversary of how my Mum left, it's an Anniversary of how my Mum lived life.This is dedicated to you, Mummy.

Nine Inch Nails-Angels

I've tried to take this all just one step at a time,
I'd love to reason but I'll end this waver signed.
'Cause it's so lonely I feel like I have died
I thought angels never learned to say goodbye


I've felt emotions like I've never felt before
Felt such devotion that it's spilt upon the floor
Now I'm so empty there's nothing left to hide
I thought angels never learned to say goodbye

I've got to find you, and remind you how it is
My life's been shattered but inside I've found love exists
Now I'm so frightened, Im so afraid to die
I thought angels never learned to say goodbye.
Bye bye,
Bye bye.

Angel, Angel.
Now I'm so lonely, I'm so afraid to die.
'Cause I know that all the angels say goodbye
Bye bye, Angel.
Bye bye.

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

A comeback

It's been a while since I last wrote a post, but I won't take long. Here's a video for my comeback


Wednesday, June 17, 2009

A unique axe that I will never forget..

In guitars, we know that tremolo systems were invented to make the notes ascend or descend (depending on the type of Tremolo system). But if you think that Herman Li was great at making video game kind of sounds, you should check this video out.

Impressive? :D

Monday, June 08, 2009


Boss OD-3

So far, I haven't done anything productive for the holidays. Except that I've been mindlessly tweaking my guitar amp to find my own signature tones. Drop tuned (Drop: C, Eb and D) on my guitar and putting my creativity into the EQ adjustment (treble, mid and bass) and the amount of gain. But I guess, true overdrive tones can be heard through 20-30 watts of power, depending on how many watts I'm putting into, since I'm using a 30 watt valvestate amp. But of course, 'a spade is a spade'. There's a reason why players use analogue effect pedals, is because of the desired tone they look for. It all involves player's preferences. I just discovered the Boss OD-3 pedal at Yamaha and in my opinion, it really brings out the big low end side of it and it has clarity towards the highs, it is way better than the Boss DS-1 (Sounds thin to me). All I do, is just take my time and,"*tweak...tweak...tweak...* Oooo, I think I just discovered my signature tone :D". It's very therapeutic if you know how to find a good tone for yourself. Hehehehe..

Other than that, I've been keeping myself busy by eating more. Yes, eating. It's as unproductive as it may be, but skinny people like me need to put on more weight -_-. That's just basically it, besides that..I just go ahead and 'Lepak' and jam with my buddies.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Would I say rational or doubt?

Today, I went to KLCC with my sister and I was loitering around while she was at the gym. I suddenly passed by 'Rock Corner' and I immediately decided to get another album for my
CD collection. I know I CD's here are expensive and ridiculous. But hey, I'm a collector of certain things that interests me. I went to look out for another Nine Inch Nails' album and I saw a few on the shelf. I took a listen of 'The Fragile' album and I admit that I did not like it. I think the 'Broken' EP and 'Pretty Hate Machine' album were way better. Probably because 'The Fragile' had too much synth colliding here and there, though I know Trent Reznor uses a lot of synth in his music, but this one felt like it had 'too much goings on'. So I guess, eventhough Trent Reznor is part of my inspiration in music, some of his songs are not up to my taste. Would I be considered as a rational listener instead of idolizing the artist? I dunno..

*I end up getting the 'Year Zero' album the next day*

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Testing my guitar out

I just recorded a video of my very sloppy improvision and utter bad shreds. I was just having a test run with my Ibanez RG380F. One thing that was funny, was my mouth. Moving back and forth like a fish. I wonder how am I gonna control that kind of expression in my future gigs.